Penitence

I've seen a lot of things that seemed to just come straight towards my way
But I never tried to stray away from what I thought would be my fate
I thought everything happening was part of my destiny
So I just let it all happen, completely naturally

But damn man, boy was I wrong
Now I'm sitting here writing a regretful song
Looking back I regret everything I did after the 5th grade
If I could relive my life, I would change up everything
I don't give a damn about this rap or any of my potential future fame
What's the point of having fame with a completely strained out brain
Eyes filled with disdain, the stain of things I've seen while traveling
And that's only referencing to me while I am in Boston
So imagine when I'm touring national
And let's not even get started 'bout international
I am a walking cursed one, my choices always seem to be insane
When in reality, all I want is a single positive change

But hey, I guess for me that change sounds so much easier than it seems
'Cus my reality prevents me from living my life to the fullest
I'm a lifeless, life living, hating, forgiving, sinister, pipe dreaming, lie streaming, honest, dishonest, truth spilling, ignorant, hypocrite
Who hates ignorant hypocrites
I'm a sentient contradiction
Lord of dissonance, A.K.A role-playing religious Atheist
Maybe I'm Agnostic, or just straight up psychotic
I'll never know because with myself I can never even tell

Wish me well, kiss and tell about how that failure in every grade
Is now heading off to fame if things for once just go my way
The fake friends would come crawling in and I would send them right back out
They never listened to my music or even attempt to hit me up

I got a small circle, just about the size of a dot
The funny thing is that most of us really live up in the Dot
Dorchester, brought me many laughs and many aching pains
At the end of the day, drove me to be clinically insane

I've seen a lot of things that seemed to just come straight towards my way
But I never tried to stray away from what I thought would be my fate
I thought everything happening was part of my destiny
But damn man, boy was I wrong
Looking back, I regret everything I did after the 5th grade
If I could relive my life I would change up everything...