Pearl

I can’t look in the mirror, all I see is hatred, all I see is vacancies, hate the way I chase those demons, I’m afraid I'll reach them, I’m afraid I freed them, Need the chains I’m afraid of freedom, I need the pain to explain my weakness

I sleep with a weapon tucked, feel threatened in bed like FUCK, how can I find a nightmare with the knife there but it never cuts, I bet if I tear my tendons up, jump from here those prayers will come, I’m scared to trust I feel less than numb, I’m dead enough

I said I wouldn’t write this shit, said it wouldn’t let it get like it did, slice my wrists, paint the night in a bright shade made of what life is, I guess I got lost again, costs my friends and lost my confidence, I want her in a map rock bottom like not again, I got problems, its obvious she can’t help me, I’m too far gone yeah, tell me I'm fucked, tell me you hate me it helps me to let go, tell me I'm just unhealthy and dead thrown, that’s me. drugs in the drink, that’s me. run to the streets, that’s me. to crump on the sink with the love for the hurt and some blood on his kicks

Who am I but nobody singing in the shower, no sound, nobody listening, who am I but a nobody bitching like nobody gets alone in the distance, who am i but me, who am I when you're lost in the world, who am I but me, who am I but a rock to a pearl