​patience (demo)

[Verse 1]
I can speak up now, but I'll regret it
The way that I been livin' lately, it's pathetic
If I told you the truth, you'll wish I never said it
Wish I could redo everything and go reset it
But that's not how it works
Say I'm gettin' better, but I know I'm gettin' worse
I've been fucked up on the weekends, I can't form a word
I hate everything about me, wish I had some worth

[Chorus]
Losin' my patience, feelin' frustratin'
Have second thoughts, been contemplatin'
Losin' my memory, I'm filled with envy
Not being friendly, been in a frenzy (yea)
Losin' my patience, feelin' frustratin'
Havе second thoughts, been contemplatin'
Losin' my memory, I'm fillеd with envy
Not being friendly, been in a frenzy, oh

[Verse 2]
Feels like everybody's usin' me
Don't care for me, already know you're screwin' me over
Claimin' you're my friend, you're not foolin' me
Don't like therapy so I'm writin' musically, yeah
Fuck what you think, 'cause I ain't never care
Don't claim that you're my friend, you're never fuckin' there
You tried to play me like a game, like this shit solitaire
I drank way too much, I'm too damn impaired

[Chorus]
Losin' my patience, feelin' frustratin'
Have second thoughts, been contemplatin'
Losin' my memory, I'm filled with envy
Not being friendly, been in a frenzy (Yeah)
Losin' my patience, feelin' frustratin'
Have second thoughts, been contemplatin'
Losin' my memory, I'm filled with envy
Not being friendly, been in a frenzy, oh