Palace

To walk away from your palace
To give up on your dreams
To think you was the baddest and to lose it all it seems
It means that you had gave it all you got
Or so you thought and now you’re falling out the screen
You try to look around to search around for hands to lift up
A pick up from a mentor or something to end your hiccup
You might just think to give up
You might lose self esteem
You might just go and wish that shit was different as a teen
‘Cause thinking back about when I got interested in music
My problems seemed insane and I was failing as a student
My mind was like a range, it’s quiet if you’re looking
But as soon as you inside, you start to hear the bang of bullets
My thoughts were rapid fire
The ammunition fuelеd it
When everything wеnt wrong
Thought I could fix the shit with music
But here’s where I went wrong
Them problems miniscule
The longer time went on I started thinking shit was cruel
You have to watch your parents getting older by the day
Brothers get depression, thought you’d only have to face
And now you’re sitting stranded
Your thoughts is outer space
No peace outside your mind
So, deep inside, you fight the waves
But them waves is always crashing
And with them, bringing pain
I’m always up for challenge
But to pass ‘em, what’s to gain?
Wish they taught me how to manage
They taught me how to blame
It’s deep inside my palace where my ass could feel the flames
I need a spot where I could lead my thoughts real far away
And weasel off and never think about my job or how to pay
I need a spot where I could read this off and drop a tape
I need a spot, to need a spot, to keep me off the drinks
Man, I’m fiendin’ off the drinks
I’m leaning off the stage
I need someone to help me or I’m leaping off the plank
I’ve seen too much to care, you won’t be reading off my face
‘Cause facing all my failures
They reading like a maze
And the maze has got me stranded
And I’ve been drinking all the waves
It’s looking dry inside the palace
‘Cause I’ve been drinking all the pain