Pain

[Chorus]
I've been lyin to keep you from this pain
Now you cryin and you know that I'm to blame
I miss you, but it's over now

[Verse 1]
My mind kinda actin like a timebomb tickin
Thoughts runnin faster than lightning, too stubborn just to give in
Sucker for punishment, hand you my heart so you can stomp it out
I've been through too much shit
When's my time? Guess my time is now
I tried too many times to be a better person
Nothing changed, the same circle of pain, it's never worth it
Hard enough to be myself, tryna stand alone
Fightin all my time away in life, it ain't right, what is in my bones?
Scars from my struggle but I'm breakin into pieces
It just got me dyin slowly, I assure you I ain't leavin
I'm the man I am today, that's for a reason, no more runnin
Reaper's followin too close but you will never see me plummet
This is way beyond this rap shit, real life panic attack
The type of shit that you could never look back on
I'm tryna make sense of all of this
This is bottled up feelings leakin from my soul, I put it in writtens

[Chorus]
I've been lyin to keep you from this pain
Now you cryin and you know that I'm to blame
I miss you, but it's over now

[Verse 2]
I think I'm goin crazy, feel that I'm about to snap
This stress has got the best of me, blood pressure is out of wack
It doesn't help that all the time I'm in this grind mode
Tryna earn a dollar in a honest way I've never known
I lived a harder life than most of y'all can say
Growin up fast as a youngin has mutilated my brain
Hard to trust an individual when everyone's deceivin you
Treatin you like a piece of shit when all you're tryna do is good
I ain't the one that spend most of their time pissy
Ain't my fault, I've tried to change but there's somethin my life's missin
The meaning of true happiness, cannot find it, I seek it
Stuck in a circle of stress and I do not want to repeat it
Too much pain and tears calls for me to fight it, defeat it
Write for no reason, my thoughts, I've got too many reasons
Tryna kneel down and let it out, my depression is fierce
Knuckles sore from fighting thoughts, shit I'm tryna disappear

[Chorus]
I've been lyin to keep you from this pain
Now you cryin and you know that I'm to blame
I miss you, but it's over now
I've been lyin to keep you from this pain
Now you cryin and you know that I'm to blame
I miss you, but it's over now