Pain Again

[Verse]
Bro dead but I can still hear his mom screaming
That was her baby, she ain't even know he was a demon
Really woke up in jail, I thought I was dreaming
We put the pressure on the opps, got them niggas teaming
When you jump in them streets, you surrender innocence
He got a fifty in his drum, he used to play with instruments
Got to deal with the consequences from all them incidents
Only leaving two ways, dying or through sentencing
Ummi kicked me out and really took away my only safеty
I fell in love with the streets, I fеlt like they embraced me
Every time I try to leave it alone, it's like it chase me
I be questioning Allah about where he place me
Ummi just was proud of me, I'm feeling like I failed
Wasn't speaking, had to call her to ask for money for my bail
I could hear her pain every time I call her from a jail
She be saying make it right with god then I'ma prevail
I really be feeling like this shit was made for me to lose
How you playing against them and they ain't followin' the rules
Only take advice from OGz that was in my shoes
You control your own destiny, you just got to choose
And we only go off loyalty, day ones will snake you
I ain't plan on being no gangsta, these streets will make you
Mentally if you ain't really built then this shit will break you
Cherish your life, fuckin with us', we'll take you
Still deal with pain, every day tryna hide it
We don't show no weakness until we get in private
I was knee deep in that war tryna survive it
We was tryna follow them but we was misguided
I don't even know how I made it this far
I was talking to the sisters at Ummi Iftar
Understand when you lose your little man, it hit hard
Ain't no way you say in them streets and you ain't get scarred
When they said my man told, I rather they said he died
Bro faking like he a gangsta but he ain't never ride
He know he ain't cut for this shit, it's his pride
Even though If I can't save him, I can say that I tried
Took advice from my big brother Wayne P
You gotta pay the price, shit in life ain't free
Still on that dark road and I can't see
My sister thought I died, it ain't me