Overthinking

(Verse)
‘Cause I’m sitting here overthinking, writing you a goodbye card
Bottle of Jack I’m drinking, how can I start this line off
By the time that you hear this, I would probably be sky gone
And what that really means is, I’m about to see my God
But fear not ‘cause I’m a fly on, into another world
But that doesn’t mean I said I’m gone
Only means that my times comes, still am here as you life guard
Holdin’ you into my arms, a shoulder for you to cry on
But that’s all me reminiscin’
None of that ever happened, I’m still alive and I’m bitchin’
Wondering how you lasting a day with me
‘Cause I’m acting like a fucking fool, imagine if I hear you out and listen
To everything that you told me
I’d probably be a better person against the demons below me
I just allow them to come up and take my brain and control me
But you know me better than anyone
You helpin’ to hold me
When I fall to me knees
Was picked apart ’til I’m shattered and all that’s left was debris
I’m fuckin’ beggin’ to heaven, hopin’ that someone can see
This fuckin’ pain that I’m in but nobody’s answering me
But then I meet you one week
And then we instantly talked a lot and it helped me to be
A better person, I was able now to walk on feet
Realizing all along, that you the missing piece that need
But I’m sitting here overthinking
All the pain to you I caused, the party that was on the weekend
I fucked up and yeah it’s my fault
‘Cause then I hide all this love that I would have for you, every time that I talk
Wish I could see right through your eyeballs
And walk inside your shoes to get a feel, before then I fall
’Til my back is against the sidewalk
And when I’m broke to get up, I know there’s someone that I’d call
And if someone talks you down and
Lays a finger right on you, I’ll beat the fuckin’ shit out ‘em
I know I am annoying whenever I am around
If you feelin’ different about me, just know I made this album for you
To show you how much that you really mean
I’d take a fuckin’ bullet to my chest and I let it bleed
And worry more about you, and less just about me
I’m a fuckin’ mess, but with you I’m always feelin’ clean
No longer an alcoholic
I can thank you for that ‘cause your helping really solved it
No more trips to the office, ‘cause therapy I didn’t call in
Savin’ all of this money that’s buried inside my wallet
Don’t want you outta this picture
Need you more in my life so, I’ma keep sticking with ya
Fuck everybody else though, they didn’t help me to get to
Where I’m at in this moment, you know you the only mixture
And I apologize in advance
If I don’t show you affection by huggin’ or holdin’ hands
It’s probably ‘cause I’m exhausted, it’s not that I fuckin’ can’t
I’ll always give you my effort, as long as I have this chance
‘Cause there’s no one else that is above you
Maybe family and God, but you equal to them too
Always know how to come through
Thank you for being just you
‘Cause at the end of the day, I’m gonna always love you