Outsider (feat. Heartbreaka)

[Verse 1 - Chow Mane]
Right by the water where I was born
Overcast, lotta downpour
Out in the cut like it's Neosporin
Car foreign and my family foreign
MCM this ain't no Jansport
I grew up on North Sanborn
But I moved up to San Jo
Viet, Laos and the Cambos
Chinese and the Mexicans
Lil chino used to get it in
Felt like I was here to represent
But lately I been out my element
Shorty told me she don't understand
In her head I was a better man
Mind slippin' way from me I know
I'm so tired, wanna go on home
Now I'm hot like Mikе Jones, but everywhеre I go the people cold
Couple nights I lost all control, and I could tell its damaging my soul
My hands prayin' dearly, tryna see it clearly but I only got one way to go
Most days I be all alone
Most nights get my mind blown

[Hook - Chow Mane]
And all my life I been a outsider
Now my money amount higher
She been in my mind like a house spider
Got me paralyzed and my mouth quiet
Aye
Spendin' too much time all by myself
I got stories I can't ever tell
Livin' in my head it's like a cell
When I die hope ion go to hell
I been gettin' faded by myself
I got stories I can't ever tell
Tryin' to forget just how it felt
No one else but me to turn for help

[Verse 2 - Heartbreaka]
Lately I been talkin to myself
They don't really know how I feel
My brother just got locked up they ain't give him bail
All them fuckin' losses send 'em thru the mail
I don't think you want these fuckin' problems is you stupid now
I was on that X for 3 days like what you doin now
Only place I go is up, I know where I'm headed now
Married to the game consider this my fuckin' wedding vows
So I can be your only one, I can be there when you want
You might miss me when I'm gone, feel like I been on the run
Different city every night, pray to god gon' steer me right
While I live this Bad Life now while I get this bag right
She don't really know what I been through
Trophies on my neck and my wrist too
Demons I could see 'em in my rearview
All these haters talkin' I can't hear you

[Hook - Chow Mane]
And all my life I been a outsider
Now my money amount higher
She been in my mind like a house spider
Got me paralyzed and my mouth quiet
Aye
Spendin' too much time all by myself
I got stories I can't ever tell
Livin' in my head it's like a cell
When I die hope ion go to hell
I been gettin' faded by myself
I got stories I can't ever tell
Tryin' to forget just how it felt
No one else but me to turn for help