​out of whack

[Intro]
(thr6xinati)
(avantegardian)
(thr6x pack)

[Verse]
I can't switch up, niggas switch up
I get sicker, but who really care though
That's why I can't trust nobody but I keep it pedalling
I can't break no bread with you, then you is not my brother then
Niggas fake kicking for some clout, you ain't nothing to me
I put niggas on my boat when they wanna ride my wave
Now they wanna make a boat out of my own fucking boat
Why they tryna tear me down?
I got shit to live up to, this shit get scary now
Fuck it, I can't see you in this hoodie, I be layered down
Now I'm just sitting in my room contemplating about things I don't wanna think about
I can't cop a chopper, if I do, might put it in my mouth
Niggas so surprised about the demons all up in my house
Nigga, you don't know me or the pain I go through
Talk about the money, that shit to me old news
And it's crazy I pour my heart out, but I do it to the wrong people
Will I ever learn that these people don't adore people?
Should I just ignore people?
But I got a big heart, I can't even control, that's a part of me
I say pardon me, they step on me anyway, but I seen harder things
Had to disconnect and take the whole damn heart out me
Now I can't get that back, I might lay myself to rest
All my folks playing with me, do I cut 'em for the best
Shit, I'm just trying my best
I could never do you like that
But you do me like that, why you do me like that?
And I got these urges that I always fight back
They like, "Why you like that?" You make me just like that
I put so much love in the world and it don't return
Is this shit my karma but this something I really learn
Yes, I just observe it
I be asking God why He put me here to feel worthless
How I'm suffocating every time I reach the surface
When I make a breakthrough
But that ain't a breakthrough, that shit just a break room
'Cause I gotta go back to work, clocking in after that
Oh, my brain did this to me? Or my friends out of whack
I ain't did nothing to you, how a knife in my back?
I got one in the head, I might put it in my head
They never understand
The shit I do for you, I want it back, it's called respect
I won't fight for that shit, 'cause you know that shit in your hands
I took a leap of faith, ain't even know that I would land
Did I even care? Shit, maybe, it depends
Maybe I was tired of swimming in the deep end
All this pain up in my chest, it's like a pool of tears
I might pull it here, I might pull, uh, fuck, fuck