Out Loud

You say so much to me
Without saying much to me
They say that silence speaks
It’s so loud

Screaming like a symphony
When you lie next to me
I’m questioning everything
But still somehow

I’m making excuses for the things that I know
You never loved me but you can’t let go
And now I’m conflicted by the choices I make
To see right through you then look away

I’ve been giving til I’m emptied out
I’ve been loving you and holding you down
Trade my heart to get a moment of sound
But I never hear you
Not out loud
Not out loud
Loud (repeat)

I miss the energy
First time feeling you next to me
Getting by, getting high from the second drink
It was good before you got the best of me
I’m making excuses for the things that I know
You used to love me now you’re letting go
And now I’m conflicted by the choices I make
To see right through you then look away

I’ve been giving til I’m emptied out
I’ve been loving you and holding you down
Trade my heart to get a moment of sound
But I never hear you
Not out loud
Not out loud
Loud (repeat)
You say so much to me, but not loud
You say so much to me, you say so much to me
But not out loud