Other Side

[Verse 1: Zach B]
Look what I became, now it's in my veins, and I let you hold this against me
Stuck in my brain, it's always the same, and I never I told you directly
Look, I ain't afraid of what they may say just 'cause I was broken and empty
So stay out the way, get back in your lane, I don't need the power you lent me
Only around 'cause they wanted control, the way I was treated was cold
Almost no one I can trust, probably better off alone
Sick of relying on luck, 'cause I can manage on my own
And lately been stuck, I'll pick myself up, and find another way to cope
Even if I don't, I'll keep on going like I used to, used to people tryna use you
Double sided, no one could define it, got a different side that I ain't used to
Hate expressing any moods, if I can avoid it, I do
They try to tell me I'm the best, so I get discouraged when I lose
And at the beginnings, they never want me to be winning, I guess that I'm not who they thought
I wanna be kidding, they're tryna turn me into someone I'm not
Emotions are spinning, but forgiving you is gonna take a lot
I bottle the loss, because now I've got something on my chest that I need to get off

[Chorus: DizzyEight]
I struggle with some things inside my mind
You thought I was okay, I wasn't fine
Tell me how you say you love me, you didn't even see his signs
Nah, did you cross the line? yeah
Man, I walk my own path, don't want to prove you right
I'm at war with myself, don't want to lose this fight
I may be cold as ice, my past it wasn't nice
I tried to hide from my other side

[Verse 2: Zach B]
Where to begin, it's difficult letting you in, that's probably why I never did
Since I was a kid, you never cared for me a bit, not easy for me to forgive
And so that's why I hid, and why was it mother you hit, even you couldn't admit
Your ambitions were sick, I'd do anything to quit, now that I'm better than this
I usually had nobody else, no friends, no doubts, there's no ends, no outs, and you pretend that you helped
Tired of feeling like I have potential but then always talk myself down, avoiding the truth, of what I can do, if I just stopped fighting myself
I guess I was frightened as hell, so much you might even tell just to be great, more than you could say, but I'm barely liking myself
I bottle this hate, 'til it can't escape, and no one can do it as well, I've wanted to change, yet I've been the same and I can't break out of this shell
They wanted me perfect not as a person, only was worth it 'cause of my quirk and
Really it hurts however they word it, 'cause being used is my only purpose
I don't know why I deserved this, always in my mind, I was nervous
Struggle to find a way or a sign, I spent my whole life deserted

[Chorus: DizzyEight]
I struggle with some things inside my mind
You thought I was okay, I wasn't fine
Tell me how you say you love me, you didn't even see his signs
Nah, did you cross the line? yeah
Man, I walk my own path, don't want to prove you right
I'm at war with myself, don't want to lose this fight
I may be cold as ice, my past it wasn't nice
I tried to hide from my other side