Only thing promised is death

[Intro]
It's useless
I tried noo-

[Verse]
I got blood on my hands
You're my only love, my only friend
Hard to pretend
That I'm full of all this happiness
Fuck what they said
I been like this since I was a kid
I know when you say you care about me that you're full of shit
Do I wanna die, do I wanna live
I'm in so much pain I can't wanna deal with this
But that very thing gave me so much bliss
Wish you'd understand
But you never did

[Chorus]
It's useless
I tried noo-

[Verse]
I got blood on my hands
You're my only love, my only friend
Hard to pretend
That I'm full of all this happiness
Fuck what they said
I been like this since I was a kid
I know when you say you care about me that you're full of shit
Do I wanna die, do I wanna live
I'm in so much pain I can't wanna deal with this
But that very thing gave me so much bliss
Wish you'd understand
But you never did

[Outro]
It's useless
I tried noooooo
Fuck thisss