One Sided Love

Yeah
I just wanna be done with this
You won't speak to me at all
Like I mean shit

Look, so what the fuck do you need from me, damn
I guess nothing at all
I've been running in these circles till I'm up on a wall
And I'm trying to figure out if this is worth it at all
I know people tell me every day I help with they pain
I can't refrain I feel I never will change
I guess my goals have been unrealistic
Dealing with all of these issues yeah I guess I missed
And I'm trying to get over you up inside of my head
I've been thinking too much on the idea of death
And I respect that I help you'll grow
But I cannot help to feel like God it watching the show
I'm tired of these episodes
Where's my season finale
And I pray on my downfall they teaching me more
Cause when you're staring at the body your're (???)
And I've been looking to the sky for all this hell in my veins
And my mama told me forever I was born as a king
What do we mean to be following dreams
I know I facing up adversity to fight anything
You said all I ever did was doubt you
Well I only doubted myself
I can't believe that you would leave when I was down on my health
I can't believe that now you're sleeping next to somebody else, fuck

It's one-sided love, I cannot take it
It feels like a drug, I cannot think this no
This one-sided love, I cannot take it
It feels like a drug, I cannot fake it

Why the fuck would you not text me at all
I've heard no words about you
You told me we need to talk
You should carry a sign that reads caution
I'ma dream about your image till I lay in the coffin
Are you fucking with my head
Ignore my text just to leave me on read
I wish I had the strength to block you
I wish the person in my head was not you
I gave everything I had to just be with you
Until all I had left was my need for you
I just wanna make it vanish can't believe in you
I just hope God someday I see this through
Sometimes you make it seem like I have a chance at this
All through our arguments, I realize I never did
I fell apart in front of you but you won't admit this was both our faults
I swung at your pitch
I'm not angry, I'm hurt, it's a different fall
I don't understand why I care when you don't at all
Your smile made me happy now it hurts my heart
I miss the days that we had before we lost our spark
Give me my heart back, you don't deserve it
I know I'm a difficult person
The last time I saw you when you left for good
You said I never cared about you but you misunderstood

It's one-sided love, I cannot take it
Feels like a drug I cannot fake this, no
It's one-sided love, I cannot take it
Feels like a drug I cannot fake this, no

Just two hurt individuals trying to make it work
I said I love you, you keep me to the dirt
I understand your image, understand your heart
Just understand that you have been half my heart
I hope you still think about me
I still cherish all the gifts that I keep around me
Pouring out my heart till I hardly exists
Swear its the last time ever that I make this shit
I'm done