The eleventh track on Scars. In this song Merk describes how he started with nothing and became successful while staying away from hard drugs and negative people while staying true to himself and his family.
Stuey Kubrick
(Verse 1)
I came a long way from lurking at the shop, in just a couple years you'll see Merky on the top
Somewhere in Jamaica, drinkin' bourbon on the rocks 'cause my purpose is to win and your purpose is to watch (Hehe)
Never question what I do it for, 'cause life's beautiful even when it's unusual
See, I could rap about money like it's suitable but I've been tryin' to put that shit to rest, that's the funeral
That 'ain't happiness, I ain't like them other guys, happiness to me is when I look into my mother's eyes
Honestly the thought of is givin' me the butterflies
Used to have depression, never mentioned how I wanna die.. Why? It doesn't matter 'cause I'm over it
Here's a middle finger to the critics with a bone to pick
'Cause I've been drownin' in an ocean full of hopelessness, drinkin' henne straight out the bottle, let’s have a toast to this
(Chorus)
I’m by myself
There’s no self-doubt
I’m by myself
I’ve lost all doubt
See I was down and out but then I got back up
These people tend to talk but I don’t hear that stuff
They used to count me out but now they’re on my side
I’m screaming “Fuck ‘em all” yeah all it takes is time
(Verse 2)
I used to dream about havin' a million dollars, with a nice whip but really I should have just went to college
Got a good job, or even became a scholar, I got married to the game and I’m fucking the maid of honor
A different posture, surrounded by all these wise guys, the fine line in the middle, I watched the time fly
I don’t care about the rules you abide by, I’m with the devil havin' dinner with no WiFi
And now these demons keep creeping on my shoulders, I finish up my plate and then I’m leavin' with a chauffeur
They used to hate my guts, now they see me on these posters, I’m rolling up a blunt 'cause I need a little closure
Plus I’m sick of dealin' with these females, I can see right through ‘em, I see the details
It feels like I’ve been in jail and I need bail, everyone wants on the train until it derails
(Chorus)
See I was down and out but then I got back up
These people tend to talk but I don’t hear that stuff
They used to count me out but now they’re on my side
I’m screaming “Fuck ‘em all” yeah all it takes is time
I’m by myself
There’s no self-doubt
I’m by myself
I’ve lost all doubt
I’m by myself
There’s no self-doubt
I’m by myself
I’ve lost all doubt
On The Rocks was written by Merkules.