On My Own

Once upon a time
I thought i wouldn't see tomorrow
Fist clenched, eyes wide open
Waiting for someone to follow
Alcohol and sedatives just kept it all at bay
No sex or drugs or rock and roll
Could make the living hell that seemed unchangeable
Just go away
No, it's here to stay

I didn't find a god
I'll leave that for the weak of mind
I didn't find twelve steps
I'd rather leave that all behind
I watched as calmly as I could
As my life seemed to fall apart
Then I sat and thanked myself
For my own sick and damaged heart

I learned it's time to start looking at reality
And what I'll always be
And especially all those things that i don't wanna see
Looking at reality

Hate and love and rage and pain
And I do not feel ashamed
And i will go ahead and face the truth
The reality

I need to free myself from self-preservation
I will be right here
I must believe that I won't ever betray myself
I'll be right here
Now I can see everything is interconnected
And I will stay, I will stay here with you

Science and dreams, mind and body
The power of love and the power of soul
Yes, I will stay here with you