On God

(On God)

In the height of my lower times, I go for mine
I know they comin' after me, I won't hold the line
Or advertise my wellbeing, to know the signs
To be decoded, I'm not here to promote designs
Further away from my dreams, when I approach my prime
Searchin' for all expectin you supposed to find
In a down social climate, or some see it as social climb
Is what I'm told remindin' me how I'm below my shine
Cuz they don't count my overtime
Measure my speed like distancе over time, but I don't show I grind
Although I beliеve in plenty thats from here you felt it's me
Destined for somethin' that being humble won't help us reach

I put that on this
I miss my potnas, whenever I look back I'm pissed
We coulda done mo
Many left my side together faster than one go
But if it helps yo stride, I'll never ask you to un-grow
Cause it ain't messin' wit my mojo
Who else's name is a collection of them logos, we all real
Some say they need to see the proof until I be the proof
Or don't believe it's true, cause I don't celebrate the small steps
If i gotta be liked, to be respected I'd rather be feared
Go hard and catch a typa break that athletes steer away from
Feel it, I just play numb
After you build it, they come
Patience

Don't go broke like lump sums, you were paid once
Got too quick wit conclusions, that's a brave jump
This the flow that save slumps, but ya'll crave stuntin'
Don't be a slave frontin', that don't amaze us
If I ain't a known great, I'm at least good
These hands touched the roads paved, so feet could
You could stand in them same spots that we stood
But still won't see it from our point of view
To start all of my mornings new, I go to great lengths, as I should do
Life robbin' me, it takes strength, but I push through
Like a shot put, for every shot put
You unwind at lunchtime, get your clock cooked
Had to smoke, to my misfortune
Even if I'm mad or broke, I've never pissed poorly
They diss until they reminisce, then forget shortly
I'm doin this, nobody doin this for me
Everyone in this before me, I'm not a product of, and they not above
I can't front, like I'm not a plug, all I got is love
Wit my heart closed, and my mind open
If not healed from my scars, know that I'm fine coping
Safe to say the difference is a huge margin
For every race that may be finished, there's a new starting, it never ends
As if reconciliation says we'll be forever friends, devil knockin' at my window
Like, "it's Me, let me in!"
Cause my doors locked
On the surface, I'm cold, my core's hot
Try to outwork him, it be bold, to give the boy his props
After realizing that you can't, no question
That's half the beating, now people painting over preference
See the under layers covered up, the fire's lit
Burn yourself, wanna smother us
Or die a bitch
The outcome of trying this, everything on my side enriched
Overlook it, I insist; nah fuck that, I exist
I'm proud of me, ain't no taking that out of me
I rap til i'm either blue in the face, or outta beats, then acapella
Options hella heavy, it's weighin' like Damon or Keenan Ivory
Can't explain what i seen inside me
They got umbrellas, the rain's comin'
Get wet up regardless
I keep my head up through all this, and my moves to myself, so they can't be ruined
I tell you nothing, no nothing's what you think i'm doing
My pain's congruent with this game I grew in
Ya'll went and shriveled up
Take yo rock if you dribble up
Triple up all the profit, way too cocky to give a fuck
Still optimistic for some better days
They don't rock with this, got my permission to go separate ways
Special wave
Shoulda saved up my energy, now I pay for it
Seeing how the ways of my enemies resonate more
When life got crazy, it was in me to elevate yours
The nights I coulda gave up like many, instead I stayed course

Like how they need you when they see you as a ticket out
I took a different route, that's what this about
The first time I tried to feed myself, I missed my mouth
Feel like they'd all watch me bleed to death if shit went south
I'm on the east tho, stand on whatever if I speak so
They still suck, deep throat
Let it free flow, i'm a cheat code
You get debo'd
We know
Still I rise, the creep don't
They won't recognize you great, because they wanna be
And then they weaponize yo patience, here they come competing
If I address it then i'm hatin'..I'm the one to beat
But that might jeopardize my faith and what I love or seek
Nah I can't specify my tastes, I ain't got much to eat
If I feel less alive awake, do I stay up or sleep?
When they suspect that I'm complacent, that shit cut me deep
Because I'm blessed and highly favored, I know what's for me

I gotta move on, so I don't move off
Either i'm too strong, or ya'll just too soft
Mind blowing or thought-provoking, it caught you loafin'
Like ships if I sail dreams, you woulda bought the ocean
It cost ya focus, don't get close, I'm claustrophobic
They anticipate the ones they see who get exhausted broken
Lost or open, benefit from every cross I'm holding
Piggy back my pain and misfortune, it's cross-promotion
Silver lining is marketing, the timing is targeted
I'm grindin', not bargaining, dawg
I'm fine, who you barkin' at?
Declining, I'm far from that
If I gave you the blueprint, did I design all the architects, or infrastructure?
Or the info to the structure, I'm ten toes, that's tenfold
I'll send over the deduction
Only on what matters, I'll pen over the subject
Without speaking
My actions disclose the discussions that I had with the wiser me
Salt in the air, but I'm not by the beach
I never saw this as fair, you don't need eyes to see
If i lost it was square, I just apply defeat
After all, I'm aware, all I got is me

Coach's challenge, see the red flags
Control ya balance, keep it steadfast
Emotions pile, I need a check cashed
So if i end up rollin out, at least the bread last
We lose the art, that's a lost beauty
Like removing a beauty mark, somebody talk to me
I make my way through the dark, my thoughts move me
In a direction that I never could predict
And it ain't been paying off, but if it ever should, i'm rich
Knowing me, you ask if something better could, it's this
On God
Just making sure that they don't take away from what i know
I can recognize the hate, I been loved before
My life's work in it's entirety's sincere
It might hurt to be inspired while I'm here
The right verse without a hook could be the greatest of
I write a verse without a hook, it was made in love
Th sacrifice is only half the price, you pay a up front fee
Lately I been screamin', "Us!" one deep
Learn to trust nothin, nothin come free
Life puts you in yo place like, custom seats

I'm sick of being humble, it's humiliating
If I could get me up a hunnid, a few milli waitin'
Hear em talkin' bout the cloth, or whatnot
I take it different, you ain't from it, nor affiliated
Not giving out participation trophies
Why would I praise a fish for swimming? Get ya paper homie
In private they be jealous, it's a a big mistake to show me
Cause now I'm eatin', I need a thicker plate to hold it
I learned to live with my demons
Never burnt a bridge that I needed, or crossed anybody else to get here
Unfortunately being solid ain't rewarded
If I let you see the God in me, you'd probably extort it
It don't bother me, ignore it
It don't bother me, ignore it
I often say, to keep my nerves from throwin' off my day
I'm still giving you my word, and all it takes
Every time I saw the curve, I called it straight

Worst case i'm wrong, first place, don't want
It ain't bout me, even on my birthday, come on
If you ever need to go to church, play some songs from my experiences in a hurt space, alone
Work space, alone
Work late, alone
Some may try they best to reverse fate, I don't
Shit ain't sweet, I'm not yo preferred taste, I'm strong
Until the one that created earth say come home
Is it clear yet?
Should I take it to a whole 'nother gear yet?
Would more accomplishments make you act weird less?
Ya mans a sucker, if you love him, you feel peer pressured? (Real Question)
Are they quick to count me out, when I appear stressed?
Is it my confidence itself, how I don't fear threats?
Is it not knowing after giving us sincere yes?
Whenever life told you no, did you hear Yes, or take it as a maybe?
Ask me how I give it to em, they gone take it as they made me
They love you second guessing it, embracing made em crazy
I pray it's in my favor, all the favors made don't break me
Not slaving over paper on a day-to-day awaits me
Switch up the mode, stick to the code
Sit with my lows, spring to my goals, quick on my toes
Pick up my load, no pickups I'm closed
Bitches and bros, strictly it goes, it's written, I wrote

I'm a product of decisions, both good and bad
You took offense I caught you stealing, told you put it back
They running my plays, won't forget who done me sideways
Can't son me nowadays, if I was being humble, I changed
Pennies add up, like penny slots
Can you not, give me bad luck
I can sense the top
You know it's me even when I pretend it's not
Still I hope they don't agree with it cause opposites adopt
Create opportunity to weigh my options, I'm in shock
Shit been goin up and down like Dennis Rodman for the rock
They don't believe in God, waiting on the prophecy to flop
I'm a problem, only gangstas that's proper give me props
Take a stroll wit me
People know if I blow up, they explode wit me
On some suicide bomber shit
Do the right things by me, Deuteronomy 5 and 6
The God in me's, not to sit too highly, I'm just this
Life's not that short, we just take it for granted
Far removed from the example, chasing a standard
It looked so easy, you thought that greatness was handed
Cause when the moment gets heated, I'm too grateful to panic

They gone tell you that it's bad and hope you play along
That's why the devil on yo ass, every day you don't
Before you settle for some trash, throw away your own
And if it's special, make it last; too late it's gone
It shouldn't take a hard time, to take yourself serious
I could talk all day, but they need help hearing it
You could walk on water, they won't think it's shit
Can even lead a horse to it, it won't drink a lick
If they ever made me do it, then I overdid it
If they ever made me do it, then you know I did it
If they ever made me do it, it was told I didn't
I don't do accomplices, that's a codefendant
I'ma roll up in it, I'ma roll up plenty
They gone roll put the red carpet when we roll up winnin'
It ain't no love in it, I got a low love limit
When ya dawgs don't applaud, who still show love? Women
Change ya focus up for who deserve it
If not, just go ahead and cue the curtains, cause you gone move in circles
Go from clique to clique, movin' circles
One argue red, the other argue blue; it's purple
Primary perspective, to a secondary understanding
Goat chakra, my presence can become commanding
On trajectory this legacy been running rampant
Just to pass on my blessings to a hundred families
Sow seeds that'll grow trees that provide shade that I won't need, those are your leaves
No deed, too great for, little ole me
Most need things I can give, I'ma OG

I've accepted all responsibility
It ain't on who you expected where I'm from, it's really me
Since I got a high respect for this I done it willingly
It's expensive when I check how I was young and feeling free
The gold glitters, but that won't get us through the winter, when the cold hit us
I knew who wouldn't be here with us, and I told niggas
Alotta history was made in them old pictures, but this the whole picture
Everything that I've invested gone return in full
Them roadblocks turned to tools, I earned my pull
And I was slow to get these gems, but I learned the jewels
Being fast as a fox, don't concern the wolves
That's why i'm chill when I creep through
Kill when the meat due
When i was young they used to tell me I got big shoes to fill, then my feet grew
That's something real, for the children I reach through the music I make

Lookin back, if I knew my mistakes would take me here I wouldn't wait to trust it through all the way, take the wisdom
I'm tryna tell ya before they deface the 'ism, don't go for the bait they giving us
They created systems, to put you in a grave or a cell early
And other ways that can make each other self serving
We only come together when we needed help hurting
They tell you get it how you live, you can tell it's working
Nothing's ever perfect, but I'm a better person
Ya'll be hella irkin, I see hell in earthlings
I be selling purpose, off the scale I'm servin
Might as well, i'm certain that I can't fail; I'm purgin'
How they held my jersey, I am well deserving
I can smell ya nervous, light a L it's urgent
I excel wit burdens, why the devil thirsty
Final level worthy, they find you stale for lurkin'
Not a regret, if I gotta dish it out, you get a complete set
Play wit me, it's recess
Ain't no resets; patience gettin thin, but no doctor said eat less
I leave a neat mess
This is just a pre-flex, one you rarely see flex
If so, it's a reflex; then I reflects
Reppin for the rejects, times that I thought I freeze up, I hit refresh
And it reflects
Murk you and the beat next, this ain't for no kickbacks or the club
I'm with that if it's love, gotta get stacks and get up
They won't think i'm eatin if I don't get fat when I grub
This that and above, a getcho bitch cracked in a tub
Why they check me? Like it ain't no mismatch when it was
We was taught to use our heads, they'll split that for a buzz
Seeing way too many have a mishap with the drugs
Made us promise that we'll never let that shit happen to us

Young mack watchin' the Mack, mackin' a cougar
Stackin' my gouda, due to move a pack in a uber
Fashion and suit up, due to the cash and the root of
Told em all that I would fall back, and I moved up
I'm back and my mood up, you can't hack the maneuvers
Reacting is too much
When they start talking like we need practice to do us, how we absent and school ya?
I need packing for Cuba, I need racks in Aruba
Try to match the energy where I'm at and get chewed up
Make em lose by a dub, been braggin' since two up
You know it's screwed up, when fools are smackin' the shooters
You know it's screwed up, when fools are actin like you was
Young Mack watchin' the Mack, mackin' a cougar
Stackin' my gouda, due to move a pack in a uber
Choose to run it back cause I'm super, duper
Elegant with telling this shit how it is homie
When that power shift, homie, don't run out or wig on me
I know how to live lonely, I know how to give only
Instead of just know how to take, get it regardless
No matter what, no matter way, it hit that hardest
When you on to somethin' greater, than a hundred prayers
Being country made us, being hungry saved us
Got love for anyone who ever done me favors
Plus everyone who know what they could run me later
If I ever lose me, and it fuck my days up
I let this go and choose peace, not because I gave up
Anytime I do sleep, it's because I stay up
When them numbers too steep, I wish you luck but pay us

I passed on them moments to create my own
I don't play along, I play alone
Best believe if I said it, it was made in stone
I don't be speaking shit on records for the sake of songs
Metaphors in my everyday surroundings, I open a set of doors every day
Confident and confidential, my credentials monumental
I'm resentful, why compete with my potential, like I'm non-essential?
I get it, your verse play like you impersonating me some lines
Can't reimburse the greats or refund time
I don't give too many shout-outs, to avoid indictments
I don't give too many shout-outs, you'd exploit my likeness
I know I'm difficult to work with
I either make things pivotal, or perfect
Don't know too many individuals deserving
Can't everybody see my rituals in person, my vision is a virtue
When it's all said and done I leave a legacy long enough to grade lectures
Everyone that got away, was the one that got away I could've stayed next to
But I chased metronomes and .wav extras
Cause I'm way extra
Like I'm at a restaurant without a date, dressed up
My taste textured
I can't let nobody out here real or fake check us
I got people worried bout me cause I'm safe reckless
Get it like a correlation to a made reference
Move silent like the mob, that's a made reference
If respect is mutual, then we trade reverence
Don't fuck up the church money, be a paid reverend

Hard times never stay so we stay stepping
Good and bad along the way, you can't face separate
Something special on my plate, I raise preference
Started invested in my faith and it gave leverage
I'm a late lesson learner, some shit take seconds
Like how quick she get ready if I say, "wait nekkid"
But I'm pace destined, I can't break methods
Mine'll come, why would I front on who I make less than?
Hate that feeling being stuck I'm working more
Cause the show must go on, open up the curtain slow
Even though, I get why they say take nothing personal
And I keep it all business, this hustle personal
All it is, is a timeline of events
You want it bad enough, you gotta grind grind for this shit
Distractions come abundant, need a fine mind to commit
That there's for anyone who wonders why am I in the mix

Cause I cover my necessities, ya'll were thinkin' less of me
I was thinking Wall Street, ya'll were thinkin' Sesame
I might go postal, so watch how you addressin' me
You can copy my ingredients, forgot the recipe
That's that shit aggression feed
Lack of understanding be a bitch, you rather stress than read
Fuck that, we gone stretch the lead
Mad that I'm the one, and somebody on yo set agreed
Calling on the situation, we gone make em sweat or bleed
Big dog, best of breeds, never test the creed
Money got my name on it, like the treasury
Sometimes it get treacherous, I'ma always treasure me
I'ma always treasure us, care for you like special needs
They won't ever measure up, stop comparing me
Apparently, me killing shit's a guarantee
Then i give it air and breath, life into that very beat that I spoke on
I been writing for my clarity, got my smoke on
What's next is to continue, you ain't down on a guest list
That's a menu
Everything that I'm left with, who I vent to
Is nothin but a reflection, of what I been through

I know names that'll never pop up on my phone screen, strange feeling like a long dream
Mane, they be saying things that they won't mean in the future
My brain's on that today, I don't blink
Can't be fueled by fire emojis
They big you up to hang the bullseye higher whoadie
You in they crosshairs
Ain't never heard no shit like this, I know, I talk rare
Most of em all air
And it's a given I go different, what sets me aside is I'm a living hieroglyphic, coin that
Whole time, prepping for perfection, it's showing that
Took too many steps in this direction, I ain't goin back
They say that your biggest dreams should scare ya, these nightmares
We learned early, not to believe life's fair
As kids we accepted that the short end of the stick was our reality
Paint our own pics for our own galleries
Masterpiece on the wall, they don't wanna work
They want it fast or free, I'm appalled
I know if I kill em all, the last to see never saw
Double up, charge all, catastrophe if I fall, and then see that I ball
Creating what wasn't, prior building
To know no limitations, not stuck with higher ceilings
They give you bribes to keep you less ambitious
That information's in your eyes, you thought they kept it hidden

Ain't nothin special bout this come-up, it hurts
You just see the finished product, you don't see the work
I know they gone count me out, til they need a verse
If I ever hit the ground, my feet were first
They say we all gonna die one day
What if we all die in two days, or die today, or died too late?
And missed the rapture? And all of this was after?
Now you waking up, feeling like life pistol slapped ya
Reincarnated; time never stops, cause it never started
We in the middle of infinity
Writing's on the wall, just scribblin' identity
Fightin' for it all, all this sin in my vicinity
Just know it was years in the making, when you hear and it makes sense
I'm in here cuz it's vacant, it appears for the takin
Even mirrors mistake it, never fear it just face it
I been geared up for greatness, get out my ear with that fake shit
Can't ignore it, on a righteous path; keep on goin
Can't afford it, but a pricey path keep me goin
Knowing I could take the cheapest way and call it quits
Told God don't make it easy, make it obvious

[Outro]
(But that won't make me one step closer than the next nigga..
I ain't wastin' no mothafuckin', time..)