Old Tendencies

Old tendencies come back to me
When I am next to you
Feeling insecure and nervous
About all the things we do

My stomach churns as I’m awake
My heart says it’s okay
We’re trembling and moved in close
Just to try to keep us warm

And I wonder

Why are you here?
You silly thought inside my head
I tried so hard to leave behind?

Why are you here?
Leave me alone
And let me love again

And let me love again

New melodies inside my head
They’re ones I haven’t heard
You touch my hair and hold me tight
These are things I don’t deserve

Old tendencies come back to me
When I am next to you
I’m safe and sound
And here with you
And we’re learning how to move

And I wonder

Why are you here?
You silly thought inside my head
I tried so hard to leave behind?

Why are you here?
Leave me alone
And let me love again

And let me love again