Old me pt.2

I'm Back on the road again
Back on my own again
I grew up in the cold now the sknow my friend
Correctional homes with the older men
No love shown I got told hold it in
It feels like I’m losing control again
I'm alone I don't know about a should to lean
No tears I been holding it
My whole life they just hold against me I ain’t told my friends

I get stoned forget
I don't sleep till my eyes roll back and I'm close to death
Laying next to these hoes they don't know I messed up
Two halves will feel whole in bed
Till they notice I'm broken you know the rest
I get scared now I hide like I owed her debt
Then they run and I'm left with a note that read “I give up I just try but it's hopeless Ben”

I'm Stuck in my ways I ain’t changing
Old friends pressing my ex like a playstation
They want me back in my cell told me wait patient
I’m Sick of doing drugs I might need a vacation
Rehab they ain't got no beds vacant and they don’t take cats on the psych meds I been taking
Fuck
How'd I get back to this
People round me they can see that my face changing

Made Satan buy my soul then robbed him
Ran from the plug I still dodge him
I was raised by bear snakes like mowgli
I ain't got no job I ain't clocked in
Selling cutter to these gronk think he knowns me
I fuck his bitch when I’m bored or she's lonely
I don't know if it's paranoia or pills I be taking but all these people around me they seem phoney

I still miss her I see her in dreams only
I'm still sitting here thinking what we won't be
I'm way worse than the day when I wrote old me
I'm back to it I'm fading away slowly
I'm way worse than the day that I wrote old me
I'm back to it I'm fading away slowly
I'm way worse than the day that I wrote old me
These xans dont work without codeine

Same girl that I loved just tried noosing
Kept feeding her bongs I could see her losing it
I tried keeping her calm but these sleeves full of scars from me braking her heart I can't do this shit
Lunatic I turn my exes then the shit turn south like I moved to texas
Back to these flats tryna move this meth shit
Stepped on it twice they still think it's hectic

Fuck the world I'm on my snake shit
Cunts are soft I don't see them changing
Fuck these thots all my bitches basic
But They get the bail when I'm in the stations
Then it's straight back to my spaceship
High for the night then we sleep the day shift
My homies know I'm broke they don't say shit
They know the go and no talk won't change shit

I'm Stuck in my ways I ain't changing
Old friends pressing my ex like a playstation
They want me back in the cell told me wait patient
I'm Sick of doing drugs I might need a vacation
Rehab they ain't got the beds vacant and don't take cunts on the psych meds I been taking
I slid back into the old me
I still won't shake your hand cos I'm shaking