Old Days: A letter to Mwila

You know....... in fact you dont know!!!!
You dont know how it feels to love someone for years but all you get as a thank you is broken promises and tears
You dont know how it feels to need that person now to have a future, mask off
You dont know how it feels to love someone so much their fears become yours
I know how it feels let me tell you it hurts and when you let go she says you hurt yourself
I’m watching my life on a screen, I wanna quit paying dstv
I gotta say it’s my fault I said I’d wait forever more like less than a year
I set things in motion, Aiden setting the gears, this ain’t no song just emotions
Maybe you do know you just won’t admit it anyway when you get broken you’ll feel it, how’s Neil
I still get dreams see you invading my head, guess you inside me, while on the outside all anyone sees is me shaking in bed, screaming your name screaming I love you I hate you come back go to hell!!!
No ones listening
Your gone
Everyone thinks I’m insane I do to only for loving you
I hope you miss me I miss you, well the old you screw version 2
You were my fantasy, Disney infinity except 1 was better than 2 death is better than loving you
But what’s the difference?
A war’s going on as a write on this paper letters fight words fighting sentences fighting off the truth but truth is I love you
Well used to.........
I thought I wanted you in my present but that’s a bad gift
You can’t be in my future either I don’t like nasty surprises
You were my first love I can never forget, you were everything now you’ve left me with nothing
But look what it cost where are your real friends who you didn’t push away nothing bro nothing
We’re together on that one just wandering waiting for the world to end all around us, I’d wanna be lonely with you but it’s not worth the long term damage
I’d rather stay away from you cause it’s either I catch feels or we arguments blow up
I wish we could grow up!!
Forget this make up be us again but how long is it gonna last one day or two or see you in Form 5 see you in Suu btw see you to Suu
Your gonna love me when I’m gone bet you love ghostwriters but then again I ain’t Zimbabwean 😂
Write back when you get this or you could rip it up instead
I’ll see you in my head or when I’m dead
I didn’t mean to hurt you I was just broken glass now I cut you too and I can’t fix myself with shallow apologies that’s fixing glass with paper glue
Just remember I used to love you
But you never loved me too