Oath of the Hopeless

[Verse 1: Keagan Grimm]
Yeah
God have mercy on me when I'm gone
Don’t know if I’m right but I know I done wrong
Got the feeling I'm a ghost with the needle in my arm
You ain't growing any roses without dealing with the thorns
I don't know what's wrong I ain't never known peace (known peace)
I always thought that I'd be better off deceased (better off deceased)
Don't know why I hate me, ready to erase me
Don't know why I'm knocking when I know I got the keys
And I know we're all diseased, everybody going down
They ain't bothering to count an impossible amount (impossible amount)
I'm writing every sentence in the Gospel of the Ground
Come and find me in the bottle when I drown (when I drown)
A shot for every opportunity I foolishly passed up
A shot for every time I've been ashamed of my past stuff
A shot for when I acted brand new, adding fuel to the fire
If defile had a mascot

[Chorus: Keagan Grimm]
Maybe I'm dead
Maybe I'm broken
And I'm just lonely enough to find out
Maybe I'm cold
Maybe I'm hopeless
And I'm just lonely enough to find out
Let me tell you I just waste my time
I hate my life
I'm trying to find a way out
I don't know what fate means
Don't know what awaits me
And I'm just lonely enough, I'm just lonely enough to find out

[Verse 2: Keagan Grimm]
I'm an old soul but I'm ready just to leave (just to leave)
Pocket full of gold couldn't get me any peace
I've been going it alone, no direction in the breeze
I ain't cooking up a storm to give the recipe to thieves
I've been living in the cracks in the pathway
I ain't been a villain just a victim of the past with a mission to collapse
I've been trapped in the rat race
Cast to the bad place
Bats in the belfry
Really in a bad way
Sick of getting lied to
I'm just making something you could vibe to
Something you can go and start a fire to
Something you could die to
Live in a casket
I'm striking a match and I'm siphoning gas (yeah)
Who becomes a martyr when everybody destroyed? (Who?)
Who collecting calls to the void?
Everybody falls till we all in the cauldron
A coffin, a curse
You've been rocking with the worst (yeah)

[Chorus: Keagan Grimm]
Maybe I'm dead
Maybe I'm broken
And I'm just lonely enough to find out
Maybe I'm cold
Maybe I'm hopeless
And I'm just lonely enough to find out
Let me tell you I just waste my time
I hate my life
I'm trying to find a way out
I don't know what fate means
Don't know what awaits me
And I'm just lonely enough, I'm just lonely enough to find out