Numbers

Took the sugar out of the cupboard
Thought that if I made myself that smooth
You would love me more and more
Did what they told me to do
Count the numbers, size 42
Still too much to be worthy of your love
To be seen, to be loved, to be wanted, to be enough

On the wrong side of the scale
But the numbers won't reveil
Might as fast
I felt the most alive

358 used to be the joy of a piece of cake
350, 350, 350 I weighed myself
I raised myself
The only thing I did not see was the life drain out of me
To be seen, to be loved, to be wanted, to be enough
(350 350 350 350)
To be seen, to be loved, to be wanted, to be enough
(350 350 350 350)

On the wrong side of the scale
But the numbers won't reveil
Might as fast
I felt the most alive

I built a house out of bones but never felt so damn alone
Might as fast
I felt the most alive

I put the sugar back in the cupboard
Erasing all the numbers that I wrote