Numb

I have my dubious motives
For my fatuous friends
I have a need to be needed
And feel superior again
And I'd rather be shallow
Blind deaf and dumb
I can't afford the risk of
Feeling anything but numb
(oh no! - shhh! can you see me? can you see me? don't come too close to my exposure - I can't expose myself -not to anyone - do you hear me?- not to anyone)
And I am such a coward
And I am such a fake
I like too keep my pulse down
To soothe this beating ache
(oh no! - shhh! can you see me? can you see me? don't come too close to my exposure - I can't expose myself -not to anyone - do you hear me?- not to anyone)
I have my dubious motives
For my fatuous friends
I have a need to be needed
And feel superior again
And I'd rather be shallow
Blind deaf and dumb
I can't afford the risk of
Feeling anything but numb