prolly one of the saddest songs i’ve ever written.
written back in like late 2020, before i started redhorse. was in a low place, w covid making me alone and fomo-heavy n all that
originally a solo song, i re-recorded the vocals as i didn’t like the og ones
i also thought spoder would go hard on thi...
[Verse 1: redhorse]
Lookin' in the mirror, I don’t look too happy
My room smells like shit, and I've got no money
Another one of those days, dead in my bed
Escape thru my phone, ignore what’s downstairs
This time it seemed worse, what’s gotten into her
I wish I had her energy, not being a sitting duck
Are my problems that bad?
They tell me I’m too awkward
Sometimes I wish they’d expel me, then I might just be bothered
I know I say no, actually I want you here
Being a burden just hurts, but I need someone to see my tears
Only downhill from here, I don’t wanna grow up
Shoulda took a few pictures, I’d have shit to look back on
But no I’m a loser
Foggy path up ahead
Maybe it’s time to wake up
Talk to her instead
[Instrumental break]
[Verse 2: redhorse]
Feeling audacious, might leave my bedroom
Been the first time since I saw the full moon
They ask me why, I’m just following the rules
But I know inside I ain’t got anyone to talk to
Bittersweet taste, brought it all on myself
Just want the attention not the love, it makes me unwell
Past few months I been sitting like a shell
Sitting like an empty vessel drifting away into the ocean
Island of my own, embrace the palm trees
Escape from reality, I just wanna be me
Move with the currents, fed up of self-control
Hopeless for the future, got me feeling freezing cold (Freezing cold)
Life has no winners
Live a plantless paradise
Sleeping in this limbo
No concept of time
[Verse 3: spoder]
Had enough, I'm running out of patience
I'm sorry
Can't figure out another way to say this
I really hope you don't keep me waiting here
I really hope you don't trap my mind with fear
I don't like who you are
Cause I don't know where to start with you
I could travel so far
But I'll end up coming back to you
And I hate it
But I don't have the guts just to say it
Walk without a head, think I'm brainless
You want my damn heart then go take it
I'll be here waiting
And it's all my fault
That I took it this far
Guess I had it all wrong
And you are who you are
numb was written by spoder & Redhorse (AN).
numb was produced by Redhorse (AN).
Redhorse (AN) released numb on Wed Apr 20 2022.