Numb

Smoking that weed 'till I lose my mind
Popping them pills 'till I feel alright
But I never feel alright
Damn I've never been this high
Ye, I'm numb but I ain't scared
At least the pain has gone away
But it keeps on coming back
Please just make it go away
So I double up my dose
'Cause this shit just helps me cope
Fuck
None of this is real
Tell me are you even here?
Why do I do this to myself?
Unable to love myself
Why am I still here?
No one wants me here