NUMB

[Verse 1]
All of my Memories fractured into fragments
Frag mines Blown me backwards left me stagnant
Blew my back out
Now I'm Broken and Barely standing
Nowhere to run or hide in no man's land I'm stranded
Was Branded a bastards up on my birth date
And I Still can't figure out if that was the best or worst day
But Nothing been the same since I ran away that Thursday
Can’t turn back time rewind back to the first day
Prayers go unanswered well wishes get blown away
As our dreams die once hopes abandoned and thrown awa
Hear the wolves at the door with claws sharper than blades
Last good fight i'll ever know well live and die zzz a on this day
I don't write songs these are my exorcisms. anguish and inner demons over these pages written
Keep to myself as a self defense mechanism
I Tried to free my mind but this indecision a prison
So i

[Chorus]
I don't know what's real
Been alone so long I don't know how to feel
Tell me tell me How does it feel x2
I don't know how to feel
Been alone so long I don't know what's real
Tell me how does it feel
Tell me tell me how does it feel

[Verse 2]
Yo I
Need a Fix I’ve been fixing to give up
My evils pent up and pinned up
Adjust my angle and pivot
Still out of gas need a fill up
Its 3am and in still up
Alone with no one to hit up
Guess there's no rest for the wicked
Wish I was Pass this
Just aggressively passive
Glowing radioactive
This issue to massive to
Hide or disguise and
You can see it in my eyes
Like clouds up in the sky
Awake but barely barely alive
Drowned in the tides because
I can’t swim
Then they Shot me in the back cause my black skin
They Said we was only ⅗ just a fraction
Nggas dying on the daily like it’s the latest fashion
Sitting on My chips like they were my last ration
Dashing Any time red and blue lights flashing
Assume you got a weapon regardless of if you packing
Officials would rather talk then walk and start taking actions

[Chorus]
I don't know what's real
Been alone so long I don't know how to feel
Tell me tell me How does it feel x2
I don't know how to feel
Been alone so long I don't know what's real
Tell me how does it feel
Tell me tell me how does it feel

You know its a little hard saying nigga we made it when your life's just a glitch in the matrix
I don't have the patience
I Would rather be sedated
Then go on feeling vacant
Nothing left to fake it
Fuck the love they just fakin
Lost my safe haven
Trapped in new haven
No vacation
Only find more hatred
How long have waited
With my face in the pavement
I Fucking hate this
Can't afford or find
The peace of mind
Tripped land mines
Caught in the rip tide
There Knots in my insides
Lost my sunshine
I won't see sunrise
This is where dream die
So
With Nowhere left to go
And no one left to miss
I kiss eclipses
And leave this…

To be continued