Numb.

[Verse I]

I never looked ahead and figured we’d be doing this today
I gave up dignity to know the feeling from two bodies pressed to be as one
I said it back to back and seconds passed and you still made me break

Now I’m crawling up the walls as they extend so far away into the clouds
We’ve fallen further down and guilt’s been screaming through my head so loud
I put my trust in you without realizing the things that were at stake

[Verse II]

My bedroom walls, they’ve been whispering
I think they hate me now that they know what I have done
And your missed calls, they’ve been blistering
We’re burning down and there is nowhere left to run

The many falls of the younger kind
Oh, how mistakes will shape the courage that we build
But we will both surely come to find
That this closet holds the bones of what we killed

[Verse III]

But you’ll just numb, numb, numb
You’re never done, done, done
So take that morphine in a glass to make the pain stop
And smoke that grass until you fade into the backdrop

You love that haze, haze, haze
I’ve seen you drink and smoke for days, days, days
Pollute the sense in favor of the sins that dull you
Till you forget all of the suffering you’ve been through

[Bridge]

But I can’t numb myself no more
Cause I’ve got plenty left from life in store
And we both know my heart’s too soft to keep it dead
I left a fucking bleeding chunk of heart within your bed

[Verse IV]

So I’ll just hope that I’ll make it and pray I’ll start healing
But until I do I’ll hold onto that feeling
Your hands and your eyes and your smile left me reeling
Like cocaine, my fucked brain will clutch to that feeling

The stress makes me stare like a corpse at the ceiling
But fuck it, I just can’t let go of that feeling
The hangover’s hurting, I can’t keep concealing
The fact that I’m hopelessly hooked on that feeling

[Outro]

So I’ll just keep lying, pretend like I’m healing
And I know I’ll still fucking hold to that feeling
Your love and your everything leaves me just reeling
But I swear to god I’ll hold onto that feeling