Numb

[Verse 1]
I, need to get myself together
I can't stay in here forever
I, reject what other people say
I'll close the door, lay by myself
I can't do it on my own,
Yet I say that I can
That I don't need help
Bottle up to the max
Keep on lying, keep a straight face
Keep on walking in this damn maze

[Chorus] 2x
Everyday feels the same
'Cause I'm fucking numb
I wish that I'd feel at least pain,
So I'd feel alive
Is my heart beating I'm not sure anymore
I have struggles that I can't ignore, anymore

[Verse 2]
I can't live like that forever
Can't just hope it'll get better
I've never cared 'bout mental health
'Til I died emotionally
Therapy is what I need
'Cause demons got me on my knees
And I don't want to live like this
Can't stop the voice inside of me
But pills just scare me honestly
I'd never take 'em normally
But ain't gon' live down on my knees
'Cause suicide's on my mind

[Chorus] 2x
Everyday feels the same
'Cause I'm fucking numb
I wish that I'd feel at least pain,
So I'd feel alive
Is my heart beating, I'm not sure anymore
I have struggles that I can't ignore, anymore