Numb

[Verse 1]
I don't want to sleep and I don't want to eat
I don't really want to do anything
I don't want to live and I don't want to die
I can't feel any sadness and it makes me cry

I don't deserve to fall in love
Nothing that I do is good enough
Exhaustion is my new best friend
Cause all the other ones are forgotten

[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, my cup overflows
But it's bubbling with liquid loneliness, liquid loneliness
And time is a man-made construct
And we are just a bunch of atoms
And nothing really matters to me

[Chorus]
I'm just existing, I'm not living
And I don't understand how everyone seems to have it figured out
There's too much pressure I never asked for
And I was never strong enough
So I pushed it away cause it's easier to just be numb

[Verse 2]
I play with his hair and he plays with my heart
I don't really like him, it doesn't go far
Relationships end as quickly as they start
He never gets too close so I don't fall apart

All that I want is attention
It doesn't matter who I don't care how it ends
If I had feelings I would cry every night
Because I'm always self-sabotaging my life

[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, my cup overflows
But it's bubbling with liquid loneliness, liquid loneliness
And time is a man-made construct
And we are just a bunch of atoms
And nothing really matters to me

[Chorus]
I'm just existing, I'm not living
And I don't understand how everyone seems to have it figured out
There's too much pressure I never asked for
And I was never strong enough
So I pushed it away cause it's easier to just be

Numb, numb, numb, numb
Numb, numb, numb, numb
Numb, numb, numb, numb
Numb, numb, numb, numb
Numb, numb, numb, numb
Numb, numb, numb, numb
Numb, numb, numb, numb
Numb

[Bridge]
I am tired of telling myself things are going to change
And I live my life exactly the same
How can I expect to feel alive, if i treat myself like I've already died?
I get my hopes up, pretend that i know what my life is gonna be
But every time I love someone, they end up leaving
And i tell myself it's just them, but maybe it's just me

[Chorus]
I'm just existing, I'm not living
And I don't understand how everyone seems to have it figured out
There's too much pressure I never asked for
And I was never strong enough
So I pushed it away cause it's easier to just be numb