Now I’m Like This

[Intro] (Sample)
"But in the last three to four months is when I really started isolating myself
And I swear to god I fought it
Then I just didn't fight it anymore
I was more comfortable staying at home"

[Verse] (Mary Mortem)
See my fucking nose yeah I broke it
See the blood drain see yeah I took it
See that fucking dope
See me yeah I’m fucked up
See it in my eyes I don’t want to live no
No no no
I’m in my head let this gun let it blow
Smith and Wesson that Glock on my own
I’ve been all alone this whole time
So why the fuck you think...
Stick it on myself stick it now I know
Stick that blade inside yeah and now you know
See me fucking bleed yeah I know you know. Know how I feel and how I feel is I want to go
Got blood on my lip yeah I fucked up again. Yeah I fucked up again. Yeah I fucked up again
See it on my nose oh oh
See the drugs let it flow no oh
Never been the one to go like this
I said fuck all the drugs now I’m like this
I just want to feel but I don’t want to feel again I just want to feel but I don’t want to feel again. I don’t want to feel again I don’t want to feel again I don’t want to feel I don’t want to feel
I got visions that I’m dead
I got all these reasons that I’m dead
I got these visions I got feelings I can’t handle
I can’t handle I can’t handle
I don’t want to but I handle it instead
I got reasons I got cuts on my neck
I got reasons I got this blood pact
I got reasons that I promised you that I would stay but I fucked it up again
I got reasons that there’s blood stains
I got reasons that I fucking stay in my brain. You get mad cause I don’t know
Fucking feel a thing bitch I don’t know
Yeah yeah yeah yeah...

[Verse] (Tommy Blve)
Inside my veins again i crave
I can’t believe the scars I’ve made
Love turns us to ghosts i know
And the lies and your eyes
I don’t feel alive no more
An i take it back its all my fault
And the lies and your eyes

[Verse] (Mary Mortem)
You don’t got to say a thing you said it all in the way you look at me
The way you look at me
The way you look at me

[Verse] (Rivi)
This is my time
My time yeah , my season
And this … is my crime
You know how this feels
Don’t you notice me?
Notice me
Notice me
Sharp…like…a blade
The way you look at me…

[Verse] (Mary Mortem)
Off the drugs all the drugs
I can’t feel so
I’m up off the drugs
And I can’t sleep and I am up
I just want to feel
I can’t handle this shit I just want to feel
I can’t handle this shit
I can’t handle this shit
I can’t handle this shit