Nothing Near

[Verse 1]
It's harder than I thought it'd be (Than I thought I'd be)
What's my place in it all? If I'd move id know, but
My feet are cemented, roots come up from the ground
Oh, they're holding me hostage, and they're keeping me down

[Chorus]
And it's hurts to see myself, who I really am
And it hurts me, but God, I wish I was a man
But I'm nothing near
I'm just a child plagued with fear, plagued with fear

[Verse 2]
I was never the special kid
That my mom said that I had to be, why can't I be me?
They wish I would change, stay out my way
'Cause it drains me in a way that I don't think I could survive

[Chorus]
And it's hurts to see myself, who I really am
And it hurts me, but God, I wish I was a man
But I'm nothing near
I'm just a child plagued with fear, plagued with fear

[Verse 3]
'Cause if all of the walls start closing in, I'll slow to a crawl
Take a good look, is this what you want?
I've got my name, but it's all that I've got
But is it enough to pull me out of all of this?