Nothing

[Verse 1]
When I was sixteen I had a crush on Michelle
Wanted her all to myself
So while I'm daydreaming bout her constantly
How she would make me honest
She had me saved in her phone as a free meal from McDonald's
But Armond.... Man up. We don't love these hoes
You supposed to put your bros before 'em
They swore that was so important
So out of saving face I started gaming
Some would call it dating, others would say its playing
Where, you'd awaken with the sole purpose of taking her
Later for making love to one woman a million ways
They would stroke my libido & my ego
Believe though
Til she would ask "what are we"
& I'd ask why would she need those
Titles, cause you & I, Webster couldn't complete those
Til that wasn't enough
& I'd find another to cuff
Til I'd find another recruit
& I think that says more about me than it does for you

[Hook]
I want everything or nothing at all
[Uriah]
& I can't seem to do without it at all

[Verse 2]
I tried to find manhood in my jeans
How many thighs you squeezed in between
How many things, the lies, that you esteemed
To make her believe that you needed her
Now I've spent half of my life finding meaning in why I needed
That fire, to be extinguished
Its crazy, cause my prayers
Ain't for a queen of my castle
It's for a mouth on my head
My priorities, scared me
I ain't wanna be lied to
But I lied to you to lie with you
Here's the problem
You're dating their representative
Bit of pretending there
Who you think they would like & how you think you would fit with them
It always ended with a mask on a floor
Right next to her clothes, mixed up with her voids
But, that got old

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
I knew there had to be more
This life I lived was a lie
But its all that I've ever known
So, what could I tell my pride
I'd been feeding it for years
A steady diet of thighs
No difference in what was different
Numbness was my disguise
But different don't mean better
Absence plays on the heart
I really suck with goodbyes
So I would rather not start
As soon as I found comfort in handling it
Here she comes to challenge it
They say when you ain't looking, you find it
Mess around, you'll nevermind it
It was time to be honest of why my mind was split
In two...but was she the one?
Was she the life I spent mine finding the meaning of
Or was she nothing more than a conquest
An object
Mind sex with a mindset or could she make my mind stretch
I said hi & was challenged in how I'd manage her
She carried herself with a standard I couldn't stand in
Now could I say goodbye to every lie I comprised
Maybe not, but she may be worth a try
So I could blame Michelle for making me build a shell
Or shed all that I've known to be repaired...and prepared
But I'm scared

[Hook]