Note To Self

(Interlude)
One of my biggest fears In life is chasing a dream and by that I achieve that dream I get an empty feeling. There's nothing I fear than chasing something thinking it will make me happy, only to find out that it won't. That's my biggest fear

Ah!
(Verse - 1)
To those with the kind hearts I hope they treat you well
To those with the blind eyes I hope they teach you well
To those stuck in the mud I hope soon you will prevail
To those fighting unknown battles I hope you're doing well
Damn!
I know what it feels like to see yourself stuck in a place
Where you do everything right but still nothing falls into place
You beat yourself up thinking you'll never win the race
You try your best but family rubs it in yourself face
You hate yourself cause you see your peers doing better
Stuck at the bottom coz you fall you every time you climb the ladder
And every night you asking God to please change the weather
But he does nothing about it, he just keeps on standing further
Depression taking over, like, go ahead and kill me
The world would be a better place without me in it
The have nots, the jobless, with nothing to show off
The ones they laugh at on the street saying they fell off
It drives you crazy you, right?
Struggling to change to your life?
End up crying every night
Like, damn, I wanna end this life
Your friends laugh behind your back with their other friends
Then come to you with a smile tranna hold your hand
Some family members keep a distance when they see you struggle
Some partners waiting to leave soon as they see you fumble
You love them right, they treat you wrong, then you blame yourself
You love them right, they treat you wrong, then you blame yourself

(Interlude continued)
Most people are chasing things that will make other people love them. That's how most people get their happiness... but not me

(Verse - 2)
There's nobody else for you in this world, you on your own
Don't ever try to be like them, learn to love your own
Nobody else is gonna do it for you, that's the way it goes
I'm here to tell you you don't need money to learn self confidence
You don't expensive clothes to feel good about yourself
Those things won't even buy you health
Learn to educate yourself, about the things that matter to you, you owe it to yourself
Go out there and try out new things, man, challenge yourself
Don't be wasting time chasing other people's dreams, no!
Don't be wasting time nursing other people's feelings, no!
Whether you're doing good or bad, people will always talk, man
Being a people-pleaser is just another unnecessary loss
People will always judge, man
People will always hate, man
People will always look for the brightest star and try to dim its light
So stop stressing yourself out, choose your battles right
Learn to choose your battles right

(Interlude continued)
I spent a lot of time studying myself... who I am, what do I want... where does my happiness come from? So I stopped chasing other people's dreams. And whatever you see me doing, just know that it's good for me. Only for me... me, myself and I. That's the way I live