Note To Self

[Verse]
Yeah, yeah, uh
I'm reflecting on my journey and I'm taking aback
Success so fast-paced, no time to adapt
And this amplifies my self-doubt
I'm glad y'all could tell how I spell out my name with different letters
And they ask, "Am I a sellout?" Huh, maybe, uh
I may be real, maybe not, uh
I may be still in a spot where imposter syndrome keep tellin' me that I'm a fraud, yeah
Or maybe not, uh
Rapidly growin' and I get no chance of showing that I still learn, yeah
I still yearn for acceptance, uh
I still earn the attention even though I still fear the misconceptions of the game and its intentions, yeah, uh
And mama said to keep focus, you know what pain is
And I'm glad that you're growin', you need some patience
You're steadily growin' knowin' I'm hopin' that you'll make it
But I know that you will make it
'Cause you come from where the boys were made men
Prayed ten times a day that you be safe, Amen
Did you realize when all your friends left, I stayed then?
When you couldn't sleep a night, was on your side, late end
When you wanted all these things I couldn't get, I prayed then
When you doubted all your efforts and your gains, I prayed then
Through the trials and tribulations, you were always brave then
One mom for you, baby, you could never gain ten, uh
Then I snapped back to reality
I feel better in knowin' somebody proud of me
Tend to forget but I'm glad that she keep reminding me
How to be in tune with voices in my head in harmony, uh
Mr. Carter said, "Let it all work out"
And so it's fair to flex since everything worked out
I stay prayed up, stepping in the church now
This new direction, I said that it's my turn now

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