Not the same

Journey back home find myself lost in my shoes
And nobody tells you when you grow up you got more to lose
Thoughts of all the missteps, memories engrained in my heart
Can’t believe I found the light, raised in the dark
Supported by my elders
Man I swore I’d never tell this
But it can be bleaker on the other side
Of white picket fences, missing love on the inside
Inside
Can you hear this?
Can you feel this pain and confusion
When your parents start to lose it
Locked up in the closet of your worst nightmares
Dreams of a happy family it was never there
Even though we had the food up in our bellies
High school kids sole connection on the cellies
Broken homes
Mommy and daddy called it quits
And we feel so alone…

God I hope it’s the not the same when we get older
This pain got me feeling like I can’t even go home
It’s harder to cope if I’m sober
Try to forgive my name
I’m not the same

Truthfully I don’t really wanna put this out
Guided by faith but I’m clouded by doubt
Sometimes when the dark gets the best of ya
You gotta pick ya head up and really know what you’re about
Pushing so hard through this life that I’m living
The pain come before all the blessings I’m given
It’s true
It ain’t about you
All the time
Kids missing their nutrition in the lunch line
In the meantime we’ve been working on our punch lines
More to life…
Generation perplexed, escape reality
Slave to corporations and anxiety
What you gonna say when your time come?
What did you contribute, how hard did you try son?
One more shot try to dull the pain
And find out what we’re missing dry out the rain like…

God I hope it’s the not the same when we get older
This pain got me feeling like I can’t even go home
It’s harder to cope if I’m sober
Try to forgive my name
I’m not the same

Not the same
You won’t see me here again
Keep progressing under pressure
Pushing through the pleasure and the pain