Not so goodbye

I think about her with her clothes off
Wonder where she’s been who she’s with or are her clothes off
I could probably do good with some Zoloft
Maybe it help me keep me steady or from going off

You got me more f*cked up than I could have thought
Never had a problem 'til i saw you now I got some
Stomach tied up all in knots
Guess i thought
I could find a way ease the pain so i sought one
I'll be up late at night, watch the sky
As my life by surprise pulls the rug from under me
You don’t care well that’s alright, I’ll keep moving on despite all the hate and all the spite you have for me

I'll still love you anyway
Keep holding on for better days
Suns out still feels like a rainy day
Clouds in the sky and I can’t make em go away

Go away, I wish you would go away
I'm lying through me teeth but I know its what i gotta say
You should stay, you should stay
I know that it’s no good but goodbye is what I gotta say

Pour me a double and then put in on ice
Get drunk and crash my car and i wouldn’t think twice
Ninety-nine problems running all up through my mind
Sometimes I wonder why I even f*cking try

Got a few things that I wanna say
I don’t think you’d understand but I'ma tell you anyway
Everything I try fix ends up in disarray
I’ve been thinking I should just escape maybe runaway

Used to be that I could just take a puff
Go to sleep, sweet dreams now every night’s a late one
Coping is a technique I don’t need I can sleep as long as I keep drinking til my face numb
Heart beat double speed heart attack at nineteen all I need is morphine or maybe find a shotgun
Double vision I can’t see losing vision losing sleep thought that was f*cking getting better guess I thought wrong

(guess I thought. thought that i was f*cking getting better, guess I thought. thought wrong. thought that I was f*cking better, guess I thought...)

Pour me a double and then put in on ice
Get drunk and crash my car and i wouldn’t twice
Ninety-nine problems running all up through my mind
Sometimes I wonder why I even f*cking try