Not Real

[Intro: Munya Murapa]
By the skin of my tooth...
And a low profile I will keep to allow me to take root 'till time toks and ripens my fruit...
That I may nourish you who grasp, struggle...and yearn for the sweet nectar.....
...the syrup of youth...

[Verse 1]
Everyday I wake up is another fuckin' challenge from my demons just to beat 'em and I'm thinking 'bout how
Life is getting harder and I might just make it shorter, nigga finna call it quits and I'm thinkin' 'bout now
But I got my girl and my momma on my line, and my grandma still alive so I know that she be praying for a nigga to survive and just take it in my stride so I take it as a sign, I'm just thinkin' out loud
I ain't been to church in a minute
I ain't been to work, I been sinnin'
Need to talk to God and just thank him for the hurt he prevented
I been at my worst for a minute
My flowers is colourless nigga, the sun just don't bling like it used to (used to, it don't)
The birds just don't sing like they used to (used to, they don't)
My words just don't ring like they used to, been down in the dumps for like 32 months and the truth is the verses don't ring like they used to (...they don't)
Been crafting my sound and losing my mind in the process
I just been climbing in darkness
Monster inside me I ain't know existed, the shit is like finding the Loch Ness
I cry with no tears, I write with a sword
I been through it all, and through it I saw that

[Hook: RayKaz]
They'll do away with you my nigga, don't ever think that you different because of the hype
They'll do away with you my nigga, don't get distracted by action and cameras and lights
They'll start to play with you nigga, you'll end up another statistic from taking your life
You think you a star, they judge from afar, and quick as it came...you outta sight

[Verse 2]
Everyday I get up and I'm thinking 'bout the set up of my aims and my goals and I'm thinking how high
Troubles hit my face, and they bring a nigga down, so I lay up on the ground and I'm thinking 'bout why
I ain't been at home in a minute
I ain't wrote a song in a minute, I been really uninspired with my disso on the line and my mental in decline and my syllabus assignments, I did 'em just in time but I'm stuck here
I'm not really cool with the fam like I was back when I was a child
Kinda just feel like a burden, the vibe just be different when I'm on that side of the town
Ain't no condition to love as a toddler
But when you grown, the conditions'll pile up
Now I'm a man and they think I'm a problem
Ain't no more dad, you address him as father
I promise I know defeat, we kinda homies
Inside of me broken pieces, kinda lonely
I kinda been overeating just to cope with it
Easy to see the flowers when it's sunny
But harder to keep on smiling when its muddy
And part of me screaming out for someone's help
And my arteries leaking out, but no one cares
And they calling me once a month and it just showed me that

[Hook 2]
They'll do away with you my nigga, don't ever think that you different because of the hype
Don't let 'em spray at you my nigga, don't let 'em blind up your vision by using your light
They'll do away with you my nigga, been there and lived that, I done that, I'm paying the price
They'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away (whichu)
They'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away (whichu)
They'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away (whichu)
They'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away (whichu)
They'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away whichu my nigga, they'll do away...

[Bridge]
In my mind is a lot of the fallen soldiers
(Ain't never lying to you)
Who was blind and they fell to their final calling
(Just wanna see you get through)
I'd be lying if I said that it had to happen
(I almost died my nigga)
But the game is the game and we better for it
(Don't go through what I went through)
In my mind is a lot of the fallen soldiers
(Ain't never lying to you)
Who was blind and they fell to their final calling
(Just wanna see you get through)
I'd be lying if I said that it had to happen
(I almost died my nigga)
But the game is the game and we better for it
(Don't go through what I went through)
So just keep moving forward and fall forward...