Not Ok

[Chorus]
It's from my heart that I sing to y'all
I feel like a butterfly trapped in a killing jar
Knowing my death awaits me
Still my success escapes me
Have I offended God, for where my writing takes
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK

[Verse 1]
As I follow life's twists and turns
My Mystic words, seem to affect the people around me. They say, I think disturbed
I think I'm just alert. I got your question Scourge
Before I trust and heard, I leave y'all in the dust and dirt
This is not a Christian verse, my pistol is quick to burst
When this kid was birthed, they should have choked my mama, choked the nurse
Converse to put a hatchet in the back of this bastard
A blaster with a ratchet and buried the casket beneath an Alaskan church
My passion serves as a catalyst, like, I'm back in Jers
Holding up the Earth like I'm Atlas, with [?]
Never plastic and blurred, [?]
And in fact, I have learned that it's back to my turn if I'm smart and determined
And I apologize to anyone that I've left behind
On this rise to power or been murdered in one of my rhymes
I'm always asked how my skill level's so accurate
And I can make a million if I could just wrap it and package it
To artists that try their hardest but still, sadly inadequate
I probably go to Hell for loving the rhyme so passionate

[Chorus]
It's from my heart that I sing to y'all
I feel like a butterfly trapped in a killing jar
Knowing my death awaits me
Still my success escapes me
Have I offended God, for where my writing takes
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK

[Verse 2]
I felt like I was drowning on land if that is possible
Shooting random in the air, trying to make Heaven a hospital
Demons and spectres of light surround me like a whirlpool
Devouring my prayers to the sky like, if it was their full
I tried to be careful with. All I did was pop pills
And use my magic to seduce women like David Copperfield
After I cop of feel, then I just set them free
Knowing damn well, half of their spirit was still left for me. Mental telepathy and levitation, I was granted
My sanity bleeding red like the seed of a pomegranate
I need time so I can readjust
And try to find out who I really was
Complete insomnia, I cannot rest
36 sleeping pills, I'm more than buzzed
A razor placed across my wrist to cut
I'm on the bathroom floor in a mixture of vomit and blood
And I tried to get up, I'm feeling hazy, I'm layin' in a tub
I'm shaking and hurt. It's crazy
Except for my babies, there was nothing in life that I loved
They found me on the rug, saved before I slipped away
When this happens again, do not resuscitate

[Chorus]
It's from my heart that I sing to y'all
I feel like a butterfly trapped in a killing jar
Knowing my death awaits me
Still my success escapes me
Have I offended God, for where my writing takes
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK
I am Not OK, I am Not OK