Not Here

[Verse 1]
Double fist the xanax
I might pass with fucking flying colors man
Dreams are killing me, I gotta think of something, damn
Live my whole life thinking I was nothing, fam
You standing over me, I don't think you could understand
Im problematic to rhythms, my shit is systematic
Its just a habit, I start a fire so automatic
Ain't got possession, like a Poltergeist, you talking static
Get the flow wet, be cautious man I been a hazard
Lived a life with no accomplishments
Crime with no accomplices
Doubts inside my head these motherfucking drugs talking shit
All this medication got me feeling vindicated
Never been a con, but don't break my concentration
Know I'm always working I can't even define vacation
Never rushing my projects I have no time for patience
Your BS is transparent and I just copped some lasiks
Bet I see through fake shit, day to day basis

[Bridge]
Breaking down the xannies with the cocktails, yeah
Please dont fuck around, not here
Yeah, please don't fuck around, not here
Wait, please don't fuck around, not here
Not the right place or the right fear
Please, just don't fuck around, right here
Wait, please don't fuck around, not here
Nah, just dont fuck around not here

[Verse 2]
First to tenth grade I was labeled a demon
I faced discrimination but I never saw a reason
My best friend went behind my back and shot treason
Thats the thing with niggas they always gon change easy
If you don't know my name then you dont get to speak easy
I'm brushing off the hate I hate to deal with fucking lesions
Always been a genius when annotating my meanings
Wanna see emotion I dont think you would believe it
Game of cat and mouse how Im chasing recognition
The shit I drop be great the fucking critics never listen
See I got a problem when you can't afford attention
My shit is not subliminal I target who I'm dissing
I almost fucking overdosed like two too many times
About to change dimensions I was scared to walk the line
Battle this addiction, bitch I'm taking back my life
So I should be the one who will decide when I die