Not A Story

Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
What am I doing right?
Feels like everything is going wrong
Im writing songs, tryna make a name in the game
Where I clearly dont belong
My will is strong my heart is too
Got big dreams gotta make them come true
But it gets tough when they say they believe in you
Even know your rent is due
I got some good friends and a great mind
Who keep me striving to move on
Up all night, writing this fucking songs
And my bank account is all overdrawn
And I hate my life Im so depressed
Everybody telling me Im next
But they dont see this fucking stress
Im a fucking mess, so my chest
I dont fuck with drugs I only see what they do
And Ive lost way too many friends to blues
And coke and pills, you know the drill
But you can't live life like its Beverly Hills
You gotta grow up, and its time for me to do that
You dont gotta live with your head in the glass
Just sniffing down
Theres more to life, theres more than lights
Theres more than blacked out and washed up nights
Theres more than cars, theres more than clothes
Look why gain the world if you loose your soul?
You can't be someone, you can't live your dreams
You dont wanna be a kardashian
Fuck what you see on the TV screen
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
What am I doing wrong
And feel nothing here is going right
I can't sleep most nights
Cause I dont really know what I want out of my life
Im just backing up off a hunch
Nobody told me I had a chance
Tryna do this shit on my own
And I be honest to feel I can cause
I fail the school and Im on the road
And I might drop out I want
But why would I go through law school
If making musics my fucking goal
But mom says shes proud, and I hope she is
Shes about to loose her house
And that ain't the life she deserves to live
Cause she gave me everything when she had none
Shes got nothing but good days coming
When Ill finally get something shell have it all
Cause you dealt with my dad be dad who beat her ass
Every time he touched alcohol
She put up with too much rain forest
Restraining orders and all
Still madenever involved
With a bum like him, or his scum ass friends
Sosame addictions
Sometimes it feels like it was all fiction
But really its a crazy world we live in
I dropped his last name as a kid, see
I couldn't affiliate with someone so shady
Who ain't even know how to care for his baby
Oven how to treat his lady
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Its not a story, not a song beat
Dont go off like it supposed to be
Nobody does it like they once said
Its coming for you now youve lost it
Forever ... life, a story for you and I