Nobody Knows (Remix)

Mask up my pain
Hold back my tears
I’m going insane
Nobody Knows
All by myself
Let the rain hit me
I’m going insane
Nobody Knows

I just woke up hoping this would be a better day
I just spent the morning trying to learn to meditate
Anything
That could get back into a better state
But that ain’t working maybe I just need to get away
Nope
That ain’t it
No that’s not what I needed
Swear I knew this before
So why do I keep on repeating
Expecting different results
Like something going to change
I guess I did this to myself
I think I’m going insane
Okay look
One side telling me to go all out
Other side telling me stop
One side telling me to focus on the work and the job
Other side keep telling me “nah”
Telling me I
Need a second just to breathe
Need a minute just to rest
But part of me telling me I cannot do that
I’ll get all the sleep that I need when I’m dead
Feeling like I’m at the edge
Tip-toeing on the ledge
Quit throwing in the towel
That’s not how I’m going out right now not yet
But I confess
I been upset
Every morning I been laying in bed
Scrolling through feeds
Knowing it means
Nothing to me
I’m not my best so I

Mask up my pain
Hold back my tears
I’m going insane
Nobody Knows
All by myself
Let the rain hit me
I’m going insane
Nobody Knows

Gonna be honest
The first verse to this song I wrote a couple nights ago
All alone in my bedroom I’m all cooped up, had the lights low
And I was gonna continue with the same theme for this verse 2
But I was too tired, it was getting late like curfew
So I slept there
Woke early got fresh air
Road trip to see the in-laws out in Las Vegas I’ll finish writing when I get there
Got there and I went on
My laptop so I could check on
That first verse that I laid down trying figure out where I left off
Started writing but I couldn’t do it
Something wasn’t feeling right (nah)
How can I be writing something dark
When everything around me looking bright (yeah)
Lotta love in this room here
Lemme just paint a picture
Got my wife sitting on the couch right now laughing with her sister
That’s Chloe, I gotta lotta love for that girl there
And christian, that’s her husband
Who feels like he’s a brother
And I miss them when I’m not here
Looking at them smiling sitting next to
Their 10 month old newborn
That’s Duke Bao my nephew
The joy that that boy brings so special
Really got me sitting here looking forward to raising our own when we get to
In the next room
Maria cooking in the kitchen
Vietnamese dishes
Got spring rolls
And Pho soup with the chicken
We sitting laughing
Talking this and that and
Reminiscing back and forth
On the things thats happened

I got moments when I’m low but
I just need a shift of perspective to let it go (let it go)
I got moments when I’m low but
I just gotta look around and see I’m not alone and so

I won’t Mask up my pain
Won’t Hold back my tears
If I’m going insane
Somebody knows