No Running

[Verse 1]
I stand at the coastline, pondering the journey
Maritime breeze in my face, Sun has a golden shine
My gaze reaches from here to the shore across
My heart is filled with gratitude and that is how I know it's time

To take a leap of faith, face the future with serene grace
Despite all the wars I fought -
In the name of love in vain, with tainted blood
Pumping thru the veins of a cub, who then became a thug

Only made love with a maiden I trusted, ultimately
The bond broke and then I couldn't broker peace
Notably never prayed for self, but for others instead
And shared with those that had hungered for bread

And still, a hole that I have yet to fill, it governs me
Pluto in the 7th House, in Scorpio -
And you know that if tension mounts, I want to grow
Thru upheaval, it tore me apart but I had to leave you...

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Through the pain that I've wrought
Lived thru, failed to soothe, I know
Despite everything that's left unsaid
If I listen to your voice, I know

Through the hurt you have seen
Inflicted and can't take back, you know
Despite everything that's left unsaid
If you look into my eyes, you know

[Verse 2]
I crave intensity, essentially I'm obsessed
With overcoming what was put here to hinder me
It seems to strengthen me, longing for
What isn't meant to be, like maybe it'll be eventually

The feeling of might and vulnerability
The volcano's still asleep, or so it seems
Reality is the blossom of seeds sown in dreams
There is significance though you don't know what it means

I am, absurdist at core, walking through parks
Seeking stillness in motion, filled with devotion
To those close yet far, concealed in the open
On my sleeve, my heart rests in perforated state

My only mask is honesty, the burden's in my face
My eyes speak the universal language of fate
Found solace in solitude, my lazaret of love
And yet, here I am, a version of me that never was...

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[Verse 3]
I remember the insomniac nights
The tears you held back and those I cried
When we missed each other by five minutes
And I stood in the rain for two hours, waiting on a damn train

I would've done anything to see you, you don't need proof
The chemistry that weekend we shared, was deeper than
Anything that I ever felt with any woman, repressed feelings
Resurged when you'd sent the words, there was no running...

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