No Matter How Much

No matter how much you know me
No matter how much you say you love me
No matter how much I appear that I'm with you
No matter how hard I try I still can't trust you
I've received all the signs and erased the visions
I've been given your lines but muted the meaning
These months pass me by and still I've failed to learn
That after all we've been through I still can't hear you
But oh I'm so sorry
Because this life has made me cruel
And after all of that I realize
Especially you
No matter how much you come to my room
No matter how much you see me as a good friend
No matter how much I appear to love you
No matter how hard I try I still can't trust you
You handed me your selfishness and I threw it all away
You've given me heartache disguised as tough love but it's pain
Tears upon my pillow
I hate to say it but i'd rather live this life alone
But oh I'm so sorry
Because this life has made me cruel
And after all of that I realize
Especially you
Stay or go
But either way it's hard to know
That you and me
Will always be the tide below
Pulling me in
Pulling me in
Pulling me in
But oh I'm so sorry
Because this life has made me cruel
And after all of that I realize
Especially you