No Apology (2AM In Cali)

[Intro: Billie Eilish]
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
I'm scared
I've never fallen from quite this high
Fallin' into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
(Yo Kezzy, this shit got me trippin')

[Verse 1]
I'ma give you a real better version of me
Some shit that you won't see in person
This is the true me, without the ski
Shed tears in the shower, I'm closing the curtain
Can write a whole book from the shit that I've seen
Internal pain, I might need a surgeon
Just sit back and listen, you don't gotta read
I'ma speak on some shit, I'ma tell you my version
I'm in the space tryna figure out
If I want love or if I really want me some closure
I've been deep in my thoughts
One minute, I'm good
It's a lot on my mind, I just hate being sober
The more that y'all snake me, just know that it make me
Y'all lost my back, my heart gettin' colder
Sometimes I just think that it's over
Don't move away, I need you closer

[Verse 2]
Sometimes I be feeling abandoned
I'm really a person that's misunderstanded
While I'm catching feelings, you back on your flight
I'm worried about when you're landing
Don't know where you at, you saying you're stranded
You say I can be real demanding
It brought me a sight when I saw mama cry
When the jets made it known that I was being remanded
I hate how I don't think until after I did it
Don't run from my promise or my consequences
I know I don't listen, I could admit it
I'm still tryna change, I just came to my senses
You know that I'm learning, but I still get it
You can hear how I feel, when I say every sentence
I'm touching that spot, every stroke, when I hit it
You said It feel good, but it hurts your appendix
I know you want space, But I miss how you taste
Come and just sit on my face
Tell you "Come here", while I'm holdin' your waist
I think love is a drug, cause this shit got me laced
Can't fall too deep, gotta stay in my place
You said I be trippin', I was never the case
Refusing to race I'm not tryna chase
I know what it is, I'ma give you some space

[Verse 3]
You said I be buggin', need to relax
I know it's some things I can fix up
Turnt on the way up to the max
I'm tryna stay out the picture
You always be with me, countin' my packs
You saw a whole Milly, I ain't talking no riches
Brazilian baby, I'm lovin' her wax
I love how you moan in my ear tryna whisper
Can't express how I feel, so I speak through the lyric
I hope that you see this, I want you to hear it
I don’t go to church but I keep a good spirit
Risk it or death, I don’t wanna feel it
Prepare for whatever, you know I don’t fear it
They almost had me, they was right near it
Free everybody, this shit got me tearin’
Don't regret what I did all the crowds I was clearing

[Outro: Billie Eilish]
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