Nineteen

[Intro]
There's a fire in my heart
But I've got blood in my mouth
Tongue caged by my teeth
Trying hard just to speak
But your shout has got me beat and I'm rusting
I'm rusting

[Verse 1]
And my mother always told me
"Tread lightly, don't step on his toes"
And that was okay at a young age
But I am fully grown
Suit and tie at the table
Another disappointment
I'll stay quiet, still unstable
I'll swallow the poison

[Chorus]
'Cause I am not who you were at nineteen
I am not the man you want me to be
I'm not a warrior, I am fragile, I am weak
I'm not a warrior, I am not you, I'm barely me

[Bridge]
And someday, I hope to make it clear to you
That success is not determined by leather-bound books and ink on paper
But rather the passion that I have found
Out of heartbreak and anger
I know that happiness is stability but
Stability is not a desk job
And I refuse to sacrifice my aspirations for an income
And security, what the hell is security?

[Verse 2]
See, I'd rather die at my fullest
Poor but free to roam
Than let an office drain me slowly
For the sake of a home
'Cause I watched your endless intermission
An actor trapped in mediocrity
Gave up on your ambitions and your convictions compared to mine
Oh, what a rigid dichotomy

[Chorus]
'Cause I am not who you were at nineteen
I am not the man you want me to be
I'm not a warrior, I am fragile, I am weak
I'm not a warrior, I am not you
I am not who you were at nineteen
I am not the man you want me to be
I am not, I am not
I am not my father's son