I remember I was sitting in detention at the time of initially writing this, and we had just talk about some very deep topics, and I figured I wanted to bring those new viewpoints in and write a new song on how it made me feel.
Intro:
Im running
Away from my demons
Verse:
I got the devil in my soul
You know, I'm a sinner by heart
But if that was ever my goal
I wouldn't spill blood for my art
Everyday I try to control
What tears me apart
As exhaustions taking it's toll
As my weary mind starts to dart
Racing about all the chaos I could cause
Broken heart wrapped up in gauz
All my dreams, ambitions, and drive
Are as fake as the wizard of oz
Walking around all nonchalant
While the inside of my head is an octogan
Fighting myself everyday
Depression using every situation as a pawn
But the real question is -
If you're forgotten, did you ever exist?
Contemplating these thoughts, could never resist
To persist in the midst of this mist I live in
Mistakes never forgotten, even if forgiven
Took care of my siblings since we was all children
Momma left and passed, spent everyday wishing things were different
She told me to never give up on my vision
Better days to come into fruition
I was down and out, hated I was living
But now I've found my place, truly lifted
Tryna turn myself around because the chance I was gifted
Nihilism. was written by Proficient Prophet.
Nihilism. was produced by Proficient Prophet.
Proficient Prophet released Nihilism. on Mon Jul 22 2019.