Nightmares

It feels like a nightmare in a way
I still have those voices in my head
They're telling me I should end it all today
I'm sorry for myself You should stay away

There's blood on my face it's crimson red
No way you could count every tear I shed
The edge is getting duller on the blade
Bathtub is getting fuller but its red

It's only getting harder
Having nightmares
About murder
I am nowhere
It feels unfair
All these demons
They have white hair

Baby please talk to me
Falling to insanity
Vanity makes me bleed
And I wish that you could see
Razor blade in my hand
Takes all these feelings away
All the pain
All the shame
I think I can't feel okay
What a waste of my name
For the things I've done and said
There's no way
You could repay
For the damages u made

I wanna feel alive
You made me wanna die

Now I have nothing to my name
I showed you who I was and you got way
Yea I don't mind put on me the blame
I got it on myself now i gotta pay

Pay for my mistakes
That have caused you pain
There is no other way
There is no other way

I'm still having nightmares every single day
I haven't ever known peace it feels so arcane
Despite what I'm saying i never feel okay
I think that there is something with my brain

Cuz she broke it trying to control it
Wish I felt nothing cuz now I adore it
I was cutting trying to feel something
Now I am doing it because I fucking love it

It feels like a nightmare in a way
I still have those voices in my head
They're telling I should end it all today
I'm sorry for myself you should stay away

There's blood on my face it's crimson red
No way you could count every tear I shed
The edge is getting duller on the blade
Bathtub is getting fuller but its red