Night In September

[Intro]
I don't think you ready

[Verse]
Look what the fuck you done made me do
Now I got blood stains in my truck 'cause of you
Guess I can’t trade it in for the truck that I want
'Cause the scent of slut is stuck in the coup
You gotta bleed on your period, but, always shake it serious
You got hemophilia, who knew?
I didn’t, but no surprise there, just another secret
Just like all the guys that you told me you ain’t sleep with
Now, tell me about it
Did it feel good? Was the sex astounding?
Did you think about me at all when his balls
Were deep in your ass, getting fucking pounded?
Of course not, another door closed
Another slut who can’t control her hormones
“Why are you doing this? What did I do?”
Allow me to refresh your mind, boo
It was a cold fall night in 2017
September 17th, down in Tennessee
I was laying there in my bed, a garbage bag around my head
Wishing I was dead, I could barely breathe
I spent the summer trying to bring you back to me
And turned away some different opportunities
And women tried to make me happy
But, I pushed them back 'cause I knew that you were all I need
I put the bag over my head and I tied it tight
My vision started slipping, I was getting less sight
I was finally forgetting the misery and the fights
Then my mind started taking me through all of my life
Flashback three years ago, I was in my college dorm
Flipping through Instagram, looking for another soul
Then, I came across you and followed you
A minute later, you followed me back, and I knew it was time to make a move
So, I messaged you
"Here’s my number, you can text me if you want to"
Trying to play it cool, but I was nervous
I’ve been curved by girls who were less pretty than you
But then, I got a text, and then we made some plans
To go on a double date with some friends that weekend
We watched a movie, we sat in the back the whole time
We made out, then laid down on my side of the car
Then, your shirt came off, and then, you cried real hard
About how you left tittie was big and your right one was small
I said I didn’t care, and knew right then and there
This was a mistake, it wouldn’t happen, it was in the air
I’ve known this girl for an hour, and now, her chest is bare
This is something I never normally do, I swear
We need to take this slow, I really like you, and I’m scared
But then, you crawled up in my bed with no underwear
I should've known that it wouldn’t last
When I was in your ass before I met your dad
And, man, this shit is sad, but it’s a fact
You went for months without the use of a fucking Tampax
Man, this shit was scary
Even though I knew, I never nutted in you, but you tell me…
“I think I’m pregnant- no, I know I’m pregnant
I’m getting morning sickness and my belly’s stretching”
But, it turned out, you hormones were fucked up
You somehow thought that I would leave you stuck
That’s when you told me, “Daniel would never do this
Plenty of times, we thought I was having his kid
But his jizz missed my clit and my tits and lips”
Man, I still get pissed when I think about it
Bitch, even back then, you were speaking bout him
But I paid no attention to what was allowed in
Wow, the signs were there the whole time
But fake love can make you ride so blind
I thought what we had would last a lifetime
But your ass lied, so now, you got to die
What if I treated you like you treated me?
Went through your phone every single motherfucking opportunity?
Don’t you talk it through with me, you’re the one that didn’t trust me
Thought I was fucking every other thot in the sea
Wait a second, don’t let me get ahead of the story
That was the first six months, we got plenty more of it to go. see
Where are we? Oh, yeah, that’s right
About a year ago when I tried to commit suicide
So, my life’s still flashing before my eyes
The memory of our first fight has just went by
Then, I remember, that next September
You drove at night to see a guy
Who just happened to be an ex-boyfriend
The one you cheated on me with, but, back then, you said was just an old friend
Woah, man, I got really pissed, and so did you
But you got mad at me 'cause I got mad at you!
What the fuck was I supposed to do? Be okay?
“Alright, babe, you can go and hang out with an old flame
You’re an hour away, and no one knows that you’re there
I’m sure you’re going to talk about how you dyed your hair"
Now here we are, six months later
And the same thing happened to me
An ex-girlfriend hits me up to hang out, you see
Then I told her "No", but still accused me of cheating
Even though I have the receipts
And now, it’s the peak of this bullshit
'Cause you got pissed at me for weeks
Thinking I was underneath some sheets with someone else but, bitch, that’s what you were doing!
Can’t you see what the fuck you’ve done?
You turned an innocent man into a guilty one
I need wanted it to be like this, I loved you
But, you made it to the point where I can’t even trust trust you
It’s kinda funny that you waited till I graduated college
To tell me that you no longer wanted to be with me
But, that was just for the moment, you just wanted a break
So you could try another dude and fucking keep me on strings!
And that’s exactly what happened, need I remind you
Of that trip to Orlando, when you find out he lied to
You, then you tried to
Get back with me, but it felt weird, 'cause you knew that you were a liar, too?
I could read it on your face, things were different
We no longer had faith, and you just seemed too distant
And I didn’t change a bit, it was all you
But, you acted like it was me, and it would fall through
Even though that Summer, I went to a jeweler
And I picked out a brand new ring
I had asked your dad if I could marry you
And he said that it was the best thing
But, on May 15th, we sat down
At the back of house on the porch swing
And you told me you wanted to break
And it was all you and it wasn’t me
And I broke down and had to leave your house
And your mom asked what had happened to me
But you lied to her and said I broke up with you
But, we both know that you broke up with me
'Cause you wanted to be an angel on the rise
And didn’t want them to see that their baby girl lied
But, their baby girl lied with another man
While she was dating me, and I don’t understand
How you can sleep at night
How the fuck can you keep any sort of piece of mind?
How the fuck can you think what you did to me
Was even sort of justified?
You fucking cheated, and you broke my trust
For the past two years, I been so fucked up
It affected my brain, it affected my strife
It affected my ways I thought in my mind
It affected my days, it affected my nights
It affected every single aspect of my life
It affected my pain, it affected my strife
It affected my sane, I guess I might die, man, fuck!
You and I both
Already had both our kids' names picked out
You and I both already had our homes
And whole lives planned out, but, I got kicked out
The last thing that my grandma told me
'Fore she closed her eyes for eternity
She was sad that she never got to meet my kids
That was six months ago, and it burns in me
Because of you, I could never give her that
I wasted three years of my life, and I can’t get it back
So, flashback back to the bag over my eyes
I just sent you a text asking "Why
You don’t wanna be with me, don’t you lie"
So, you called me and I heard you cry
You said you had to tell me something that you never wanted to
But, you just couldn’t deal with the lies
So, I took the bag off my head
And drove to meet you at the church gate
And you got in the passenger’s seat again
Just like you did on our first date
But, this time, you were crying
'Cause you spent the whole summer lying
And you lead me to believe that I had a chance
To save our love from dying
That’s when you told me that you cheated, slept with your ex
And kept ‘em under reps, just I wouldn’t see it
Told me that I couldn’t treat you any better
But felt like my love for you had depleted
That’s when you picked up the phone
And you called Daniel to confide
You felt like you were all alone
On that cold September night
Then you left my heart torn and so broke
And you drove off into the night
That’s when I went on home
To put a bullet between my eyes
But, before I do that, I had to get you
And that’s why we’re here, now
I had to tell the story of how you fucked my life up
But, now, there’s a big crowd
You ain’t give me memories, you give me scars
A low self-esteem and a broken heart
I know you’re scared, but, just remember
You caused this that night in September!

[Outro]
Hah!