​next to u

[Intro: heylog, Timothée Chalamet & Lily-Rose Depp]
(There is much I wonder about a great many things)
(heylog)
(I understand that)
(Do you?)
You make it so hard to live
I feel like I'm in Hell
My parents ain't raise no kid
Who'll just end up killing himself
I could shut down
And no one will ever find me
I could lie down
And see you there next to me

[Verse 1]
I need you to focus, I'm crying, I'm broken
But no one really cares how I'm feeling, so hopeless
I hate your guts, and I hate your friends
I realized you all suck, so I'll just cut you instead
Now I think of you less, 'cause I thought highly of you
So I distanced away to try something new
I'm steady being myself, something you'd never do
But I still wish you the best, even though I still hate you

[Verse 2]
You texted me
I'm not sure what to say
I'll respond in a week
Maybe two, maybe three
Avoiding us and move on
Though I still write you in songs
It's the emotions you hold
That never feels wrong

[Verse 3]
God, I'm so disappointed at everything that I do
I'll play some guitar, record a couple of loops
But it ain't met with my standards, so I start something new
At least I put in some work, which you'll never do
Taking pics of the wall, add a plant and a book
Write a verse and a bridge, 'cause I ain't good with no hook
I keep repeating myself, am I speaking too much?
I'm not a person who talks, so I'll just chill in the back and watch

[Outro]
(Hey, uh)
(I don't know, I don't know)