NEXT SUMMER

I am not ready yet, I'm thinking too far ahead
But I think I might really die if I don't do something about this

I see it in my mind, a silhouette in the sky
What is it that I pursue? That I idealize?
I just wanna share my obsessions and demise
Then we'd hurt ourselves together
If only my delusions could me push me further
But I'm too far gone

"Just think about next summer, by then I'll have it all"
Is what I told myself back in like 2016
But I only went deeper and deeper as you can see
There is no way out for me

That one frame which just fills me with dread
Which makes me wish I could be just like them
I'm using the window instead of the door to escape
It's a long way down

Think about what could've been different
Think about the one with you and me in it
Asking the grey sky for an ideal
All that I wish for is to feel okay
Think about what could've been different
Think about the one with you and me in it
Asking the grey sky for an ideal
All that I wish for is to feel okay