On the second track of Stage Four Bolm reflects on how it surprises him that a year has went by since his mother has passed and on how hard it is to live without her and how it still affect him in his day to day life.
Somehow it's already been a year
Embracing all diversions to make this feeling disappear
Now I just feel you everywhere
It coincides with the guilt of knowing that I wasn't there
I was told that you wouldn't have known
Told myself I was where you'd want me to be
(But it's not that easy)
I tried to be your light
Did my best to shine
Nothing I do feels right
As I went out all the time
How has it already been a year?
I skip over songs, because they're too hard to hear
Like track two on Benji or "What Sarah Said"
They just hit too close when I'm already in my head
I was told you were half asleep
Told myself you would be proud of me
(But it's not that easy)
I tried to be your light
Did my best to shine
Nothing I do feels right
As I went out all the time
Somehow it's already been a year
You keep finding new ways to make yourself reappear
I hope you never leave me be
I haven't found that courage to listen to your last message to me
New Halloween was written by Jeremy Bolm.
New Halloween was produced by Brad Wood.
Touché Amoré released New Halloween on Fri Sep 16 2016.